Turn down the lights, turn down the bed Turn down these voices inside my head Lay down with me, tell me no lies Just hold me close, dont patronize - dont patronize me
Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont You cant make your heart feel something it wont Here in the dark, in these lonely hours I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power But you wont, no you wont cause I cant make you love me, if you dont
Ill close my eyes, then I wont see The love you dont feel when youre holding me Morning will come and Ill do whats right Just give me till then to give up this fight And I will give up this fight
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When I heard this song after a very long time, I cried. Well not really cried (I was in the office that time) but tears were there, good thing I was wearing glasses. I guess, I thought everything was ok, I thought I can handle it... being just a special friend. I know I'm past that phase already but I thought I can handle liking someone who isn't. You can't force someone to feel something they don't so I just went with the flow. But even if I try to avoid thinking about it, the worst it becomes, the more I became confused.
I wanted to tell him so many things, but I don't know where to start. I don't even know if I'm in the right place to feel this way. I don't even know if he's interested to know why I'm feeling this way. Ang gulo talaga. Kahit ako di ko ma organize thoughts ko. I'm used to telling people how I feel. But not this time.
And I can only think of one way to fix this all...
I'm giving up this fight. Bahala na si batman.
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*stolen shots except julie's pic, hirap kasi kunan ng stolen, ang sensitive kasi sa camera.. ahahhahahah
Last night, I had dinner with these people at TGIFriday's. Had a wonderful wonderful time. Treat ni shelwin and andrei so mas masaya. Heheheh.. As usual, we talked about personal stuffs and joked about it. New expressions taken from Sherbs ("Fuck off!", "For crying out loud!"), updates from julie, plans sa future, marriage, sex, relationships, career, etc,. Mga jokes na nakakatuwa at nakakabaliw (kahit corny). Ehhehehe.. I love them so much and I don't know how my life would be if I haven't been friends with them. Nakakalimutan mo problema mo pag kasama mo sila, or pag hindi naman, napapatawa ka nila... It's hard to stay sad when you're with them. Ang masaya pa dun, ang rami nmen pagkakaiba sa isa't isa. Varied talaga personalities namen. Kaya siguro mas naging close. Ehehhehe.. Haaay.. can't wait for december 13!! ^_^
I love you frens,,, =p
*of course the post title is just a joke dearie... hihi..
Best viewed in internet explorer 7.0 1024 x 768.. it's my first time to create a header with my pictures. Teehee. I'll still be editing this template.
About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
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