Tuesday, August 14, 2007

I don't know what to do

I'm currently in the phase of not knowing what I want (again). I want time for myself but I don't know how. It's like I have tons of things to do that I cannot finish and they continue to pile up! I have a lot of things I worry about, that I don't want to worry about because I feel it's not big of a deal. Feeling ko it's so childish to think about those things. Pero feeling ko ren I'm just running away from them.

Sometimes I want to break up with my boyfriend, but it would probably make things worst. Sometimes I want to resign from work but where would I get the income to pay for all my bills and "luho". Sometimes I just want to rest at home, but I keep getting restless.

I don't know what to do or where to start.

I want to do something impulsive, something spontaneous.

My friend and I are planning to rent a place of our own. It's a big move and it's something that would add cost to my budget. And honestly? I'm scared. I'm hell scared being away from my comfort zone. But I feel it's something I need. Because it's something new.

I don't even know what's bothering me. I hate this feeling.

I need to cry. I want to cry. But I can't.

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