b0yishChick: Emo-ness v2.1

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Emo-ness

It's been what? More than a month? *le sigh* Not much has happened the past month. Well, more drinking and more hanging out with friends. Training is over so I get to do real job (which made me really glad). Went to galera with QC friends, our first outing ever! Have tons of bills to pay. Finally getting enough sleep since my work starts at 9 AM. Beauty pill texts once in a while and somehow it makes me red, (flattered and furious). Have no idea what's happening with the ex, and I feel that's what he wants. Also been texting with JC (who's the first ex), about depression, life, past, future, etc... which really makes me feel glad that we're still friends. Yanyan is getting married and I'm happy for him and somehow sad for our friendship since we haven't got together in a while. Still looking for a kaladkarin friend. Tin and Keren is also getting married next year so I have to lose weight. Harold came back to PI to visit last month and Leah will be back in September.

And yes, nothing much has happened. I've been depressed most of the time and hanging out with friends seems to be the right cure. Which makes me glad that I have a number of acquaintances and friends. Though you can't help being alone sometimes. Which is actually healthy because you get to think about stuffs. But when these things are those that you usually don't understand, it gets tough. *"Tough times". Sometimes I hate myself for thinking to much or sometimes too late. Sometimes I really don't know what's bothering me. I find it hard to open up nowadays unlike before, which I think is the problem. But how can you open up if you don't even know what's bothering you right?

Don't get me wrong, alone is not bad. I enjoy being alone sometimes.

I want my own sanctuary, a hiding spot. Some place I could go and think. Some place green and windy or a beach, easy access yet only a few people knows the place. Some place I could cry and laugh alone. Where I could lie down and stare at the sky until the stars come out. Where I could talk to space without wondering if anyone is hearing me. I know I sound crazy, but you get what I mean.

I'll be going to Bora this weekend with a few girlfriends. I know it's like a party place, but hopefully I'll be able to do a few thinking there.. and have fun of course. At least now I know what I want to happen in Bora.

*tough love, thanks to my girlfriends for the "gift" :)

Labels: emo

posted last 1:49 PM

1 Comments:

At 11:31 PM, Jimelle said...: dali, let's analyze life and boys again.. and again! wahahah..

me thinks, everybody's growing up.. you are too. iba lang ang trip nila.. growing up the faster way, by getting married. take your time, find him na nagku compliment sa kng sino ang Abi na we know and adore. ;)

buti pa kaw nasa bora..habang eto galit na galit ang sky sa amin dito sa metro manila sa kauulan..haha. hope you had fun! :)

*hug*

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