I've done stupid things, stupid assumptions, stupid actions, stupid logic, and realized I have been immature lately. In short I can be stupid every now and then. Heck I feel I have a right to be stupid once in a while. If there are ways to make up for my stupid mistakes, please tell me. But I doubt there is, because it's done already. No reason for dwelling on the past. I try not to regret that mistakes that makes me strong. If I keep repeating those mistakes, then the problem is me. I never learn.
I just need you to accept me for who I am and who I am not.
Sometimes it's tiring to control every emotion I have. It's tiring to think about what other people would feel. I'm tired of being strong. I'm a bitch that needs appreciation once in a while (and sometimes look for it at the wrong places or at the wrong time). I'm a friend that sometimes gets tired of having an emotional leech around. I'm a sister who can be a brat MOST OF THE TIME. I'm a flirt who has no idea what I'm getting into. I have a guy trapped in me. I am trying so hard to act my age, trying so hard to be lady like (much to the disappointment of my grandparents). I use a mask to hide what I really feel (just like what a friend said, I know how to pretend that everything is ok when it is not) I can be quite unreasonable sometimes. I disappoint the people I love. I need time alone. I need time with friends. I contradict myself. I am selfish, arrogant and rude (sometimes). I am patient, generous and would go out of my way for a friend (sometimes). I'm tired of making sense out of everything that's happening. Giving everything reasons. I can be a nag. I love thrills and excitement, but is scared to take the next step. I try my best to be an angel. But.. I.. just.. can't.... stop.... Because I guess that's what I am.
So please bear with me.
I really don't need to be judged right now.
*I love my friends, because they accept me for who I am despite all my negativity, despite all the physical and emotional pain I bring them :p and because they love me even when I'm at my worst.. *mwah*
Sensya na sa pagka emo.. 5 bottles of SML and I can't sleerp, so what do you expect? :P
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About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
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