I miss Ghostwriter. I remember back in grade school when I'll say "Nanonood ba kayo ng Ghostwriter?" and most of them would answer "Ghost fighter?? OO!" or "Hindi e". Nobody could relate to how much I love that show. I'd go home early just to watch it. I also watch the re-runs.. But I have the "2nd" ghostwriter. eheheh.. I miss Jamal, Lenni, Rob, Gab, Alex, Tina and Jamal's grandmother. eheheheh.. I hope I remembered them all correctly. I used to pretend to be one of them... *lol* I used to draw/scribble Ghostwriter in my notebooks. I didn't like Tina for Alex.. I thought Lenni and Alex makes a better pair. eheheheh.. Lenni's dad was cool, he was a musician (i think).. And I have a better handwriting than them! (well, I used too) I hate the episode when Rob has to leave. :( waaaaaah!! I hope they show re-runs of the first ghostwriter. If they do, please tell me what channel and when.
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I miss the old Cs2k5. The one before all the pressure in school started (i.e. Thesis). The one where we could all hang-out together. We've been so busy in school that we have no time to have fun anymore. Some of us have grudges at each other because of school works. Our profs have warned us already that a lot of friendships were ruined because of thesis. I never thought it would come to the point where some of our friends are not talking to each other. And to think that some of them are really good friends. Sure, me and one of my groupmate had tension during the critical pressured moments.. but we talk.. we understand.. we become rational.. and we help each other.. and we get through it and return to our normal selves.. "sayad".
I hope everything will be ok before the school year ends. I hope that all of us could hang-out together again and just have fun. We were known to be fun/happy people by the faculty and our batchmates.. I jsut hope we could stick to that.
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I miss having a boyfriend. But I'm not ready yet. I'm just starting to enjoy my life as a single.
Sunday evening was one heck of an overnight-project turned slumber party.
Keren, Leah, Tin and I decided to form our own ethics group when our guy friends decided to form an all-boysmen group. It was really tough for us to turn down other people who would like to merge/join with our group, but we were firm and sticked to our plan. We have been planning on going out since last year. It was a good thing plans pushed through last sunday.
leah, tin, abi, keren
We tried to finish as much as we can before 9 p.m. so we could go out that night. We decided to go to Alabang Town Center. It was my first time to go to ATC, since I live up north (we stayed at Tin's place in Las Piñas)yayness! we stayed a while at cable car and spent the rest of the evening at SBC where we saw Ryan Agoncillo. WOW! he looks much cuter in person. Anyway, kuwentuhan galore! We had tons of stories to share since it was our first time to go out only the four of us. Pare-pareho pala kme ng kalokohan sa buhay (well almost).. from the day dreamings.. to the play-pretends.. to the dialogs.. to the childhood dreams.. hahaha.. and other things I don't want to disclose.
We returned at Tin's crib around 2 a.m. We were about to snooze out when there was a certain topic one of us opened up. And WAPAK! gising ang lahat! hahahahah.. It was one conversation I wouldn't forget. I realized how matured we got after 4 years. We stayed up until around 4:40 AM. Ultimate GIRL bonding experience talaga.
Sana maulit.. sana wag makalimot.. sana laging ganun.. para masaya diba?
I love you guys! I mean.. ladies..
February 20-21 would be two of the best days in my life.
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my cutting-class buddies/beer kada jed, kokoi, dennis, and abigol
^^... Sana next time sila naman ka bonding ko
+++ Note: Dumaan si parekoy kela tin, sinauli ang wallet ko.. d kme masyado nag-usap pero ok lang. Minsan hindi ko alam kung paano ako kikilos pag kasama ko sya.. tropa ba? eheheheh... May nalaman ako.. balbon pala legs nia.. hahahahahah.. isa pang tawa... bwahahahhahahahah!!!
I finally have the time to blog. After weeks of intensive school works (yeah right), and spendin many nights at my groupmates place. I finally have found time for myself. First thing I did? cleaned up my room.. then blog.
But then, I don't know what to blog about. I feel like my brain deteriorated or writing isn't really my thing anymore. But I want to write, I love to blog. If you knew me long before my pansitan days [let's say, more than a year ago], you would know that blogging was a part of my everyday routine. And I was a better person back then. I mean, sure I have matured, but I miss the feeling of telling everyone "hey! I'm here and I have something to say"..
I guess I already have accepted the fact that life do suck sometimes and maybe I really don't need to tell anyone about it anymore. But I guess, blogging runs through my veins ;).
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I met with Anna a while ago. She's a gradeschool friend back when we were still studying in JASMS. It was really fun to see her again. She was one of my closest friends back in grade school and I guess even if we have not seen each other for years (just the ocassional bump at the mall) we still are. We reminisced on how we were back in grade school and how we are right now. We talked about what our former classmates are doing presently. We talked about childhood crushes and petty fights (how one classmate stabbed me in the back with a pencil). I had fun spending the afternoon with her.. and I'm so excited to spend time with her and Gay and our other classmates.
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Percentages:
In Loved: 70%65% 58% [darn friendster] (yes.. I THINK I'm in love) Graduating: 85% (yayness!!!) Happy: 50% Contented: 60% Life: 10% (so many things to do...)
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In four weeks time, my life as a student is over (hopefully). Our finals start by March 1 and grades should be submitted to the registrar by March 8...
...I have no idea how to face the real world.
look for a job after graduation?
oficially be a "professional bum"?
wait a month or two or three or more before I apply for a job?
accept my uncle's (and my mom.. and my granma..) suggestion and visit them in the US?
be successful in the career I'll choose?
be happy?
...like I said, I have no idea.
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My current LSS.. *smiles*
I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS LOOKING FOR LOVE Everything But The Girl
I was alone thinking I was just fine I wasn't looking for anyone to be mine I thought love was just a fabrication A train that wouldn't stop at my station Home alone, that was my consignment Solitary confinement So when we met I was gettin around you I didn't know I was looking for love until I found you...
*I didn't know I was looking for love until I found you, honey I didn't know I was looking for love until I found you, baby, oh no I didn't know I was looking for love I didn't know I was looking for love
Coz there you stood and I would Oh I wonder could I say how I felt and not be misunderstood A thousand stars came into my system I never knew how much I had missed them Slap on the map of my heart you landed I was coy but you made me candid And now the planets circle around you I didn't know I was looking for love until I found you...
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So we build from here with love as the foundation In a world of tears won consolation And now you're here there's a full brass band Playin' in me like a wonderland And if you left I would be two-foot small And every tear would be a waterfall Soundless, boundless I surround you I didn't know I was looking for love until I found you I just didn't know
Finally! Our defense is over. We only have minor revisions that we should pass before march 8. yayness!! So there's a newsletter and an AVP presentation left. 2 weeks to go and hopefully it's all over.
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Parekoy was ever supportive as usual. He was always there when I needed someone to calm me down. He would always know how to tame me.. eheheheh.. especially when I'm pressured. Haaay..
He went to UST a while ago to visit me.. and also last tuesday.. He also went here [@home] last friday. And everytime he's with me, it's a different feeling. *sigh*..
And he's much cuter with his new haircut. I'll post his new pics soon (hopefully)...
yuck.. I'm so cheesy..
basta.. everythings going well right now..
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Excited na ko sa overnight nmen kela tin!!! bonding ito!!! Ü
*sigh* 6 more days to go... still have to master learn Java in 2 days.. need to finish the program by saturday.
God I really need a miracle right now..
I need to graduate on time.. I have my own plans. I need to be working by April, and as much as possible, not in a call center. I need to visit my mom in the US by 2006 or 2007.. I don't want to be a disappointment to my parents, especially my grandparents..
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I just noticed that "parekoy" has the wicked-est bod among the guys I dated.. *drools* haha! Well, except for Mark (who now looks like a member of the teenage mutant ninja turtles).
Anyway, he was here a while ago and we watched "A Walk to Remember". I know more guys who loves to watch AWTR over and over again... geez.. I always tell them "read the book.." it is much better..
I can see the light for our thesis.. hopefully, we'll be able to finish it by Feb 17 for our defense. Damn Java Expert System Shell and Artificial Intelligence Mark-up Language (although lesser curse for AIML) :þ.. I've always hated Java, no matter how powerful my mentors say it is. But I guess, I have to love it sooner or later.. or else, we won't be able to finish our thesis.. eheheheh
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"Parekoy" and I watched "My Sassy Girl" (my nth time to watch it) at my place last friday. Hankulit nga e.. Coz we were'nt really supposed to meet.. kaya lang he got bored sa school so we met at SM Manila then decided to stay at home. While we were waiting for an FX, Resty (Tin's boyfriend) saw us. "uh-oh... issue..." eheheheh.. but I guess it was ok, coz I was bound to tell her (Tin) anyway.
Watched Ocean's Twelve with "parekoy" yesterday afternoon. I had a great time with him and now I'm scared.
I like him... and I'm scared of getting hurt and I might hurt him too...
pero ika nga ni Tomas... "Stop thinking... just feel..."
He's funny, nice, sweet, a gentleman, has nice eyes... and I so luuuuurv his arms... yummy... harhar...
He's one of those people I think I could tell everything without being judged... And that's very rare to find...
He's a friend of my friends' boyfriend which is a plus point, because I know what kind of people he hangs out with and they’re cool and fun to be with.
He saw me first [making a fool out of myself... twice...], before really getting to know me, and I think that means he doesn't really care how I look...
He's cariñoso [I think], I like how he taps his fingers at my back [kahit inaasar nia ko na mataba]... I like how he smells.. I like how he makes tampo/drama [although minsan wala sa lugar.. :p].. and how he reacts when I repeat the things he says [sometimes with the same accent], hit him hard, bite his arms, or pinch his tummy..
Basta.. I'm happy.. and I missed this feeling.. and I'm missing him.. waaaah!! ayaw ko maging cheesy!!!
Sana everything goes well.. sana all the karma I received before was enough for all the mistakes I've done.. para this time around, everything would be ok.
Love is such a strong word, and I guess it's too soon to say I love him [we're just starting to know each other], but I like him, and I'm liking him more. Who knows? waaaah!! langya! ang cheesy ko!
Never felt this happy for a looooooong time. And I'm friggin' scared. I'm scared that maybe one day he gets tired of me. I'm scared that maybe by posting this, I'd jinx whatever may happen…
But I guess I'm stupid not to post this... after all, this is my journal right?
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Re: Ryan issue
For all the times I've been hearing "Bakit hindi na lang kayo ni Ryan?"... I keep answering "Kasi hindi kme pwede.. gulo yun!". And he answers the same thing to his friends [or something similar]. We are friends from different poles. And I know him too well to know that I couldn't trust him in a relationship and he feels the same way about me... Hindi ko kaya panindigan ang pagiging girlfriend niya [masyadong strict.. eheheheh]... Hindi siguro namen kaya maging masaya pag naging kme..
Yes, I do love him... but the love I feel for him is not quite what other people think. He's special to me because we shared so many things... and he knows me very well... that is what keeps our friendship stronger. We may have done stupid things, but we've done this knowing that whatever happens, we would still be friends... Sure, I've thought that maybe someday we could be what other people expect us to be.. but when the opportunity comes, I'll have doubts [I'm pretty sure he does too] and back-out... I guess it's never meant to be...
Most of the guys I linked up with, have some issues with him, and I can't blame them. I actually blame myself for talking so much about him. I guess he's like the best friend I never had. But I just hope that people would understand that there could be no more than that.
Ryan is Ryan… And if pwede talaga maging kme, we could have been a couple, years ago pa… High school pa lang… maraming opportunities… Pero wala talaga… Ryan is a friend… He's my kuya and I’m his baby sister… He's one of the people that I could tell everything to.. let's just leave it like that, because it’s better that way.
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About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
