Kakagaling ko lang sa Nova. Before pumunta ng Nova, galing ako ng Ortigas. Nag-apply ng NBI clearance. Saya no? Graaaaaabe!! Ayaaw ko lumabas ng mall... Kahit maraming tao, malamig naman diba?
Anyway, one thing I realized when I was at Jed's place was...
Namimiss ko na maglaro ng tumbang preso!!!!!
pati patentero, at agawan base.
Kids nowadays (those who spend most of their day playing RO, gunbound, PS2, etc..) are missing on a lot of things..
I remember an episode in Oprah about kids using their imagination for fun (like playing pretend??). You get to use all your senses and improve all your intelligence (if I remembered correctly, there are 9 intelligence.. may nadagdag raw na isa..). You also get to play with other kids in person (hindi tulad sa RO).
Just Watched the Ozzfest thingy at MTV.. lufeeeet!! nakaka-antig! eheheheh.. Reminded me of a post years ago. Medyo natatawa ako pag nababasa ko.. pero I still feel the same way.. Except for the black nail polish thingy.. I apply black nail polish when I'm bored.. bango kasi ng amoy.. *lol* adik!
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ROCK.POSER
I listen to rock... I like rock... but I'm no hardcore rocker girl like what other people think. I'm not the type of person that would dish out money for CD's, wear the so-called rock attire, black nail polish, and collect rock memorabilia. I have no piercing in any other part of my body except for my ears that I had when I was young. I'd rather stay at home and listen to my mp3's, than going out at night to gigs. Not being allowed by my parents is a factor but I just really don't see myself in a mosh pit with people I don't know. Maybe one day if ever I try it I would know why people enjoy doing it. I just like listening to it... end of story. I'm no poser, because if I were I would be saying, "Rocker ako!!"... Which is basically not true.
I like rock music; I could sympathize with its lyrics. And I could sense the pain the writer feels, especially if I am experience pain and anger within myself. Somehow it's hatred and anguish in the melody (as what other people would call noise) releases the tension in my body (well, after listening to it that is).
It's my way of venting out the anger I feel towards my parents, brothers, friends, etc. Rather than answering back to a useless heated argument ("useless" meaning I know that no matter what I do I would never win even though I'm right), I'd rather listen, sing, scream, growl with the tune playing on the radio. It puts me back in my shoes. Makes me realize, "Hey, I'm not alone in this world... I'm not the only weirdo."
I don't smoke weed, joint or whatever the musician I listen to smokes. It's their way of being able to vent out their emotions. It's their life and I know I won't use it as an example to live mine. The product of their self-expression is my own natural high... Yes, I usually feel lighter while listening to rock music. And I know I'm not the only one.
I listen to rock... I like rock music... but I'm no hardcore rocker girl... just a person who appreciates much in life.
+++ Astig no? Two years ago pa yan ha.. eheheh USTex days pa.. bwahahahha.. corny.. but cute.. *lol*
First of all.. ♥Allan♥ (hanime).. Happy beerday! *mwah*
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Happy birthday to JC!! *mwah*
I went to megamall yesterday to meet him and Geri (his ex). He was also with his friend. So medyo mukha kmeng ewan kasi tatlong ex nagsama-sama... but it was all good, even if I wasn't really in the mood..
Last year we look like this:
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Post break-up
That last pic was taken last october (read entry to know what happened on that memorable day), the last time I saw him before yesterday. I used to be soooo in love with him back then. Kahit hindi na kami, I used to cry over him almost every night. Gaaah! Crazy in love was more like it.
I remember a month ago, I was scared of what I would feel if ever I see him again. But yesterday, upon meeting him, I wasn't as excited as I thought I would be. Medyo na bore ako actually. But I somehow enjoyed talking to him again about stuffs (mainly NBA).
oh and yeah, one part of the conversation I can't forget:
JC: May kasabay ka na pauwi? Me (fiddling with my cellphone, thinking whom I should text): Wala nga e.. JC's friend: Taga saan ka ba? North? Me: Oo. JC's friend: Ah, ikaw yung dati. Me: Ay oo.. ako ung dati.. graaaabe!
:Kalokohan no? ehehehhe.. Sarap sapakin.. *lol* He very much looks the same, except he's semi-kal and his face kinda improve (nag papa-derma ata ang loko!).
He showed me his current girlfriends' pic. She's pretty.. prettier than me. Ehehehe.. Wasn't insecure though.. So that's a good sign right? *wink*...
Sabi niya mas-cute raw sya kay parekoy. I beg to disagree.. lamang lang sya sa height (he stands 6 feet tall), pero mas cute pa ren si parekoy no!! Di pa kasama dun ang angas power ni parekoy.. ehhehehehe.. naks!
So imagine, it took me half a year (June 2004-January2005) to get over him, my first serious boyfriend. But still, I miss how he treats me (yung mga happy memories lang ha), how he handles my drama, how he treats me like a kid, how he patiently understands my childishness, how highschoolish our lambingan was... funny nga e, before I used to cry when I remember our times together. Pero ngayon, napapa-awwwwww na lang ako. He wasn't as "bato" as what people perceive him to be. He was actually really sensitive and caring.
He never abused my kindness even though he knows I'll do any favors he asks me. It's ok for him for me to cry over the phone even if it was about him. I could STILL talk to him about everything. He says that I have an angle where I look like KC Concepcion (yeba!) *smiles*. And he doesn't say things seriously just because I want to hear it. That's what I like about him as an ex. Eheheheh...
Right now, parang big bro ko na lang sya. Kala mo kasi kung sino pag pinagsasabihan ako pag tungkol sa love life ko. hihihi.. although may point sya.. pero buhay ko 'to e.. magagawa niya?
Basta, masaya ako ngayon. Kasi I have finally overcome my fears. JC and I are friends. Maybe not as close and as best as I thought we would be, but at least we are friends.
Diba panget? *wink*
And I end this post with a random text message from my archives:
ay ni2lugan me hehe.. pagod tlga baby ko tbihan ko nlng cya tapos hug ko... nyt beh .. aylabshu... .:Superman:. 26-Jan-2003 21:58:15
Pare, thanks for everything. Imagine, since first year tropa na tayo! Nakalimutan ko na kung paano tayo naging close. Pero feeling ko dahil sa rock un e, dahil halos lahat ng kaklase naten walang alam kundi si Nelly at Ja Rule. *lol* Simula noon, naging saksi ako sa pag-iyak mo sa kalsada (hahahahha), sa pag alaga mo kay Leah, sa pag walk-out ni Ma'am Roan, sa pag-iyak mo ulit pag galit ka, sa mga di nio pagkakasundo ng iyong iniirog, sa pag babati nio ng iyong minamahal, sa mga thesis at case studies na ating pinagdaanan (Team Lucky Me RAWKS!!!), sa pag walk-out niyo sa akin (hmph!), kung paano ka nandiri sa video ni mahal, sa pag mature bilang isang tao.. at higit sa lahat sa pagiging isang tunay na kaibigan.
Salamat sa pag-damay sa pag cut ko ng class. Salamat sa pag papakilala sa akin ng DREAM THEATRE (rawks!!! \m/) Salamat sa pag-libre sa aking pag wala akong "time" Salamat sa pamilya mo na inaruga ako tuwing tayo'y may overnights. Salamat sa mga tawanan at iyakan. Salamat sa mga inuman na walang humpay Salamat dahil lagi kang andiyan pag ako naman ang umiiyak Salamat at lagi mo ko pinapatawa Salamat sa pakikinig tungkol sa mga lalake ko kahit alam mo na nagpapakatanga na ako. Salamat sa pag-tanggap sa akin at sa pagkasayad ng utak ko Salamat sa pagiging ka-puso (Pare, may hang over pa ako k Irene.. eheheheh) Salamat sa pagiging groupmate ko ng dalawang taon. Salamat sa apat na taon na ika'y naging kaibigan ko.
Salamat sa maraming bagay
At dahil diyan, kahit ilang yosi pa! dadamayan kita.. kahit ilang tagay pa ng MP na walang yelo at chaser sasamahan kita (waahahhaha!! allergic sa gin! :p). Kahit umiyak ka pa ng ilang beses dito lang ako (pagtatawanan kita.. jowk!).
Sana ang ating pagkakaibigan hindi limitado sa pader ng UST.. alam naten yan.
Pare, you're one of the best! I can't imagine college life if you we're not a part of it (English yan! matuwa ka!). Lam mo naman kung gaano ko kayo kamahal diba? eheheheh..
GURANG!!!!! (oo, ilang buwan na lang.. magkasing edad na tayo.. kaya pag-bigyan mo ako) waahahahahah!! nuninuninuninuni.. *hags*
kelan inuman ng beerkada? ehehehhe
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I was blog hoppin and encountered this:
Joey: "How can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want?" ---DAWSON'S CREEK
...and...
Is it possible to be just friends with someone i have these sort of non-moderate feelings for?... Or am I doomed forever to just be in love and ultimately significantly hurt? ---FELICITY
Sapul! I would like to post more on what I'm feeling right now.. pero birthday ni Dennis. So dapat masaya..
Sunset... These are the moments when I wish I bought our digicam
Just got home from Nasugbu, Batangas. We stayed overnight at Munting Buhangin as planned. I had a grand time (as usual) with my friends. Although, we were not complete, we had fun (but of course we missed those who couldn't come :( ). Kainis! walang cuties! *lol* pero rami pretty girls. So some of my guy friends and I were scouting for pretty girls (note: I am straight) *lol* . We also went snorkeling! Astig! rme gandang fish! We tried catching some but later on realized that all fishes are not like Nemo. hihihi.
During the night, mahaba-habang inuman na naman ang nangyari. I love drinking with my friends because the drama and the fun would blend very well. And drinking with them and talking to some of them helps me a lot. When you're drunk, you say what you feel as of the moment. You may not like it, you may not think before you speak, but you sure are honest (as of the moment). Anyway, I slept for only like 2 hours and woke up with a hang-over. Funny things is I headed directly to the beach... took a dip... hahahahah.. The water was so cold that it took my mind of my head ache.
Anyway, hopefully this won't be the last time I went out to the beach or pool with my friends. Sana next time, kumpleto na kami. Para masaya diba? I miss my batchmates sooooo much!
Beach-ing won't be complete with out any emo shots. I'm fat and emo. Nice combination right? *wink*
Walk-out kings (minus Jed) and the ultimate pasaway // Me and Kristine.. see mah colar bone? hahahaha!!
Me and Erek.. honey babes! // Me and Marc.. I look so cute when I'm tipsy. Hihihi..
/me sayaw *Everybody in the beach get tipsy! woot!*
Feeling model.. harhar..
Edwin, Reg, Dennis, Erek, Pretty Abi (nyahahahah), Leeanne, Berd, Anna, Tin, Kokoi, Reiner, Wally, Donnlyn, Poli, Marc and Bryan (who's not in the picture) *don't mind the kid at the back
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Lam mo ba, sabi ko pag nalaman ko na hindi ka nakapunta dahil sa tropa mo magtatampo talaga ako sayo? Alam ko mali yun. Point ko lang naman e madalas mo na naman sila kasama e. Lalo na ngayong summer. OA mode na naman ako. Sana hindi ko na lang tinanong sayo kung ba't di ka nakapunta. Don't worry.. I'll try my best na wag kang murahin. Pagdasal mo talaga na may next time pa.
I was somehow surrounded by heart broken friends yesterday. While one was beside me, another one is on the phone.
Girl A is jealous of another guy. Because guy is taking most of the attention of girlfriend of girl A. I can't blame her. Girl-to-girl relationships has the same issues as a girl-to-guy relationship.
Girl B situation, is however, similar to the one I am in right now. The guy can't committ. But his excuse is lame. So lame, that I think his dick has shrunk. A 25 year old guy who won't committ because his family doesn't want him to have a girlfriend? How lame is that? It's funny how I try my best and how easy it seems to help other people when I don't even know how to deal with my own problems.
Actually, it's not really a problem... I just think a lot.
If ever your in UST, try having lunch at Uncle Pipoy's. It's in Moret near shakeys. I love eating there. Not only because of the great food, but also because of the warm feeling when my friends and I eat there. Especially the treatment we get from "Mommy" (Uncle Pipoy's wife). In one conversation we had with her two days ago, one line struck me.
Mommy: Sa MU, babae ang laging talo.
She was actually talking about her HS kid. Anyway, MU? Mutual Understanding? Ok sana kung ganun e. The problem is, I'm not sure of how he feels. I'm not even sure if he feels the same way as I do.
A few days ago, I was talking to JC and told him the situation I am in right now.
JC: Alam mo, kung nag lalaro ka lang.. kaw laging talo diyan.
I'm not saying that we are playing games right now. But from the way things are going, it seems to be far off from something serious. And that's what I'm scared of. Because it maybe ok for me right now, but I'm sure it won't be ok in the long run.
Masaya naman ako ngayon e. No doubt about that. I like it when he's around. But how long could I stand not having the commitment?
Haaaay Ewan..
I'll just follow Kokoi's words of wisdom: Stop thinking.. just feel..
War of hearts and minds.. who would pay the price.. does anybody care. ~Bamboo
+++ I'm soooo proud of my grades last sem. It's my highest average ever. Eheheheh.. Saya! Thanks for your prayers!! *hugs*
Ang haba na ng ni-type ko!!! as in sensible post talaga sya.. sabay nag hang ang IE ko.. sabi ko n nga ba, I shouldn't have surfed other sites while blogging.. kainis!!
GOT THIS FROM FRIENDSTERS' BULLETIN BOARD.. ehehehe.. reminds me of my ex.. *lol* (hi JC!! lapit na bday mo ah!)
If a girl cries in front of u.. it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
If u take her hand, she would stay with u for the rest of ur life; If u let her go, she couldnt go back to being herself anymore.
A girl wont cry easily, except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily, only when she love u the most, she put down her ego.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u, please hold her hands firmly, coz she's the one who is willing to stay with u 4 for the rest of ur life.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u, please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of ur decision, u ruin her life.
When she cry rite in front of u, When she cry bcoz of u, Look into her eyes, Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?
Think. Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity, In front of u, And bcoz of u?
She cries not because she is weak, She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity, She cries, Because crying silently is no longer possible, the pain, hurt n agony have bcome too big a burden to be kept inside.
Guys, Think about it, If a girl cry her heart out to u, And all because of u, Its time to look back on wat u have done, Only u will know the answer to it.
Do consider it, Coz one day, It may b too late for regrets, It may b too late to say "im sorry"... ***
To my friends... please repost this bulletin Ponder this message seriously. Dont do this to a girl
You may regret it for the rest of ur life. Maybe in ur life, she's the only one who loves u the most. Remember this lesson before its too late...
BOLD phrases applies to me.. well.. I mean.. before. ehehehhehe
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Figure this out: I'm a five letter word beneath you. If you remove my first letter, I will go above you and if you remove my 1st 2 letters, I'm still around you. What am I?
It has been 5 years since I last saw him. I remember it well. It was our highschool graduation. He moved to Davao with his family a week after grad. The last news I heard about him is when he broke up with his girlfriend back in college. "Hey Anne, guess what?" my best friend Lyn greeted me in one of our monthly get togethers. "What?" I asked. "Chris just broke up with his girlfriend. He's single again. And he's coming back to Manila." breaking the news with an evident smug in her face. I just shrugged my shoulders. He was a friend of Lyn's former boyfriend. He was introduced to me at a party and we got along quickly. Talking about how the school's admin sucks and how cool the Beatles were. Constant phone calls, text messages and get togethers made our bond stronger. I did like him, and obviously he did like me too. I guess we were to scared to admit it back then.
Then something happened, Lyn and her boyfriend broke up. And their relationship ended on a sour note. Being the bestfriend that I am, I took time to console her. And somehow, without talking about it, Chris and I understood that it wasn't a good idea if we still keep in touch. I mean, we were in high school, I support my friend and he supports his. Since then, just like Lyn and her ex boyfriend tried so much to avoid each other, so did we. Constant glances and nods were enough to show each other that each of us still exists. It was like that until graduation. Come graduation day, I looked at him and smiled as he approached me. "Congrats ha." You said. All I could say was a thank you before he broke the news that he was moving to Davao. "Well, good luck... " I said forcing a smile. That was the last time I saw or spoke to him.
Lyn only learned how I felt about him when we were already in college. She felt guilty for what happened even if I told her it was not her fault. Still, she made it a decision to constantly fish information about him. It was from her that I learned that he was taking up Civil Engineering, played basketball for his department, helps in the family business, and constantly played in a band. I wasn't surprised because it was all just like what we talked about back when we were in highschool. I was happy for you actually because you were achieving your dreams.
Fast forward to the present: Lyn was getting engaged. And Lyn's fiance was his team mate back in high school. We were both invited in the engagement party. Lyn wasn't sure if he was coming and I did not expect anything. But he did. And boy, I can't wipe the smile off my face when I saw him.
"Hey" I greeted him as he entered the the gate. I could see the surprise look in his face. "Hi. You look great." He never lost his charms. "Thanks, and so do you." There was an awkward silence until I asked him to follow me to where the guests were sitting.
We sat beside each other all evening. Talking about how college was for us, our inside jokes back in highschool, the Beatles, school wars, movies, and a lot more. We had coffee after the party (And I swear, I saw Lyn whisper something to Chris and he just smiled right before we left) and talk and laughed until the wee hours in the morning. He drove me home and as I entered the door, I can't stop blushing and it was a refreshing feeling because I haven't blushed in a long time. It was like I was in High school once again.
Lookeeee!! what I had for merienda. Strawberry cheesecake (from coffee experience lang po.. 50 bucks.. kaya grab agad!) and coffee (taz mug!! yayness!)... hahahahah.. adik no? Tapos may table cloth pa (which is actually just a cloth hanging in my room).. hahahah.. feeling coffee shop.. sa room ko lang kasi yan e..
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Naisip ko tuloy, mag franchise na lang kaya ako ng isang coffee shop... hahahahha!! anlayo ng comsci sa business-ad. Oh well, libre lang naman mangarap e.
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Sarap mag mini-jamming! That's me and two of my cousins (Claudine and Lyka). We looove playing the guitar even if the guitar doesn't like us. *lol* We also love to sing.. sobra! sigaw kung sigaw! este... kanta kung kanta. ewan ko ba. I guess it runs in the family. Siguro asa pamilya na ren namin ang pagiging baliw. I love them soooo much! I could be downright childish when I'm with them. Pero ate mode ren ako minsan. Syempre, I never had a younger sister kaya I love spending time with them. Tapos ang kulit pa nmen mag english.. ehhehehe.. Quotables nga e. *lol* laugh trip sobra.. They're much younger than me. 5-6 years age gap namin. Although sometimes they act more mature . Mga "ate" ko ren yan minsan e. Lalo pag dating sa mga boylets ko.. (as if meron.. *lol*).
I was watching "Hitch" a while ago at my friends place when we heard this line
"You know what it's like getting up every morning? Feeling hopeless, feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong man. But, at the same time hoping that she still finds happiness, even if it's never going to be with you."
"Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away. "
All we could do was say.. "awww..."
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What's with men and their ego? I didn't mean to offend him. And mas lalo hindi ako perfectionist. I also make mistakes, (Mas tanga pa nga ako sa kanya e) and I would glad if it was my friend who told me about it.
Pero why do I feel bad? Maybe because I feel like I offended him.
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Like I said, I was at my friends place a while ago. She was going on a date and she wanted to introduce me to her new boyfriend. As she opened the gate, there it was... a long-stemmed rose. Man, is she lucky or what?
I never received flowers from guys before. Only from some of my girlfriends.
I've always dreamt of receiving one. I always pictured myself receiving one. It's like the first kiss for other girls.
Siguro being one of the boys for so many years, a flower would be a symbol that I am in fact a lady after all. Drama no?
Dreaming of a single rose for about 5 years (since my first boyfriend) is tiring. I have already accepted the fact that I won't be receiving one.. not in a looooooooooooooooong time.
But seeing that rose makes all the wishes return. Gah! (Like Jessica Simpson's "Oh my Gah!" *lol*) I feel like I'm in highschool. Natatawa na lang ako sa sarili ko. Oh well, a bottle of mudshake wouldn't be bad. In fact I have one in the fridge right now... hmmmmmm...
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Sometimes I feel like I'm too nice (libre lang naman mag feeling no?) or people may think I'm insensitive or stupid for not noticing things. I just don't want to make a big deal about some things ya' know? It's not worth it. Kahit na nagmumukha na akong tanga.
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I'm currently feeling emo right now.. hehehehe.. SOUND TRIP NA TO!!!!
Broken Hearts And Concrete Floors Dashboard Confessional
I'm always assuming the worst But you're going on none the less And there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall Letters from further away Keep pulling me close to home And they're something to cushion my callous sighs
And I know that you hope for Longer goodbyes Embracing for forever And falling in your eyes In your eyes Your eyes
Pouring over photographs I'm living in your letters Breath deeply from this envelope, it smells like you And I can't be without that scent, it's filling me With all you mean to me To me
Continually failing these trials But you stand by me none the less And you won't let me sink though I'm begging you I'm begging you
Phone calls from further away And messages on my machine But I don't ever tell you this distance seems terrible
There's no need to test my heart With useless space These roads go on forever There'll always be a place For you, in my heart
So I'll hit the pavement, it's gotta be better then waiting And pushing you far away cause I'm scared So I'll take my chances and head on my way up there Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten
My first outing experience for summer 2005. It would also be my first experience of an overnight swimming (11 p.m. to 4 a.m.)... ever! It is also the first time I could say that I enjoyed being quiet and not get bored. hihihi.
*pics from my camera phone
It was him who invited me to the trip. I thought that there would only be a few of us (whom mostly I already knew since barkada sila ng tropa ko). As it turns out, medyo marami pala yung hindi ko kakilala. So shy type galore ako. Except when I'm around him, Tin, or the other people I know. The trip to the resort was ok and I was quiet most of the time.
Picture taken by parekoy. I love how the lights played in the water. The place was ok and cheap too. It's somewhere in pansol. Makiling heights ata ang name. 2 pools both with "4 feet" deep water isn't that bad. eheheheh.. Pero ang ginaaaaaw! subra! My teeth was chattering most of the time.. except when I stay around more than 10 minutes in the water.
Oh yeah, it was also the first time I encountered a male certified cam whore. *lol* And I thought Jed (my buddy) was the ultimate male camwhore I know. At least we have something in common. Among the pics we took, I think these two are a few of the best because I look thinner than I really am and hindi sya mukhang bangag.. *snicker*.
EDIT: He is not my boyfriend. It just so happens na puro pics nmen ang nasa cam ko kasi camwhore kme.. ehehehhe.. Tropa nga lang kami. *lol*
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Wishful Thinking
Sometimes I wish that this isn't just a game. Because I feel sad knowing that that's all it could be, knowing that it can be better. But then, "games" are meant to be played and enjoyed. And I'm enjoying what we have right now... whatever it is (I really have no idea what it is). This way, nobody get hurts right? It's a win-win situation... right? I just thought that I graduated from this kind of relationships. Ehehehe...
Tropa talaga ako. Ehehehe..
EDIT: The games has started... bring it on. Just remember the rules of teh game.. PLAY FAIR..
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Taken from my testimonial archives.. from my baby boy (alaga) Darren.. :)
ehem...yabs eto na ...hehetsk after 4 years of service being my Yaya haha(just joking =p) ...being a real friend(KATROPA<---madami na siya nyan di na naghahanap masyado okey "para sa mga nagbabasa" ), abigail is one nice person in her own way.hehe saya kasama if ever you'll like to go out or just hang around. hmm dependable when you have er..problems... hehe certified singer!!!hehe(Jamming tayo minsan kakamiss mapanuod ka kumanta at tumugtog!!)... Sort of masiba sa Cheesecake!!!hehe as usaul lalagay ko dito GaiL(but she doesn't want to be called that way...don't know why...)GAIL your cute pero hanggang dun nalng talaga pede ko ilagay hehehe peace tayo!!! hmmm what else..ah she loves people from the south hehe but really brings her bad luck hehe!! ei don't worry haha you'll get lucky a day!!hehe say hello to JOLLIBEE for me hehe take care! and most of all GODBLESS!!!Go Yabs!!!!
It's nice to see my friends appreciate me and loves me for who I am. *mwahugz!*
After emailing something in our class e-group about our outing with "cheesecake!" as my ending line.
poli : cheesecake (insert YM smiley "=))" ) abi : d mo ba alam na ang lahat ay parang cheesecake???? abi : it's not funny.. it's true :) poli : is michael jackson like cheesecake? poli : :)) abi : yes.. abi : deformed.. abi : pero sikat.. abi : eheheeh poli : cool abi : kung anu-ano toppings.. eheheheh blueberry, strawberry.. oreo.. abi : pero deep inside.. cheesecake talaga sya abi : ehehehhe abi : parang si m,.jackson poli : how about optimus prime abi : dba robot si optimus prime? abi : matagal gawin ang isang robot.. poli : oo abi : to make a perfect robot.. dapat magaling ang gumagawa abi : ganun ren ang cheesecake abi : ehehehhe abi : it's the mind behind the robot that makes the robot.. poli : indi naman perfect si optimus prime a..lam ko natalo siya kay megatron nung sa isang movie abi : ehehehhe poli : speaking of which..transformers the movie 2006! abi : kaya nga.. ang cheesecake ren nde perfect poli : how about yoda abi : lol.. adik abi : yoda is wise... cheesecake is wise.. abi : too much yoda is bad for your health poli : cheesecake is wise! abi : too much cheesecake is bad for your health also.. poli : all hail the almighty cheesecake poli : your majesty the cheesecake abi : lol.. gagawa ako ng bagong template sa blog.. title nia cheesecake.. eheheh poli : that's cool poli : cheesecake is of the essence. abi : now you believe me.. abi : ehehehehe poli : yeah poli : (insert YM smiley.. the one that bows) abi : eheheh abi : ako ang cheesecake ng buhay abi : eheheh poli : ang cheesecake ng walang hanggan abi : \:D/ abi : paalam na aking ka cheesecake.. sa uulitin poli : sa susunod mahal na cheesecake
Ayoko kasi ng may grudge ako against people. So ok na kami. Friends.
Just.the.way.things.are.supposed.to.be.
Just like what I told him a thousand times before, madali lang akong kausap. Kung seryoso, seryoso... kung gaguhan, gaguhan... kung laro, laro. Pero hindi ko sinasabing nag gagaguhan kami. Hindi ko ren sinasabi na hindi kami nag gagaguhan. Pero for sure he's not the serious type. Basta, kung ano na yun, yun na yun. Ok naman kami e.. so walang problem.
Diba parekoy? *wink*
Anyway, so andito sya kanina. Mukhang bangag.. palibhasa adik.. hephephep! Hindi po sa pinagbabawal na gamot.. kundi sa karera ng motor. Harutan galore eto! Imagine, pati ako pinapatulan??? Ang lakas mangurot at mamalo. Shempre hindi pwedeng hindi ako gumanti diba? eheheheh.. At least nasampal ko na sya.. *lol* medyo scripted nga lang. Pero it was ok.. He played NFS2U while I try to annoy him as much as I can. Ehehehe and I could say that I was good at it. Afterwards he let my younger cousin play and he dozed off to sleep. Sarap nga ng tulog nia e.. wala lang akong pentel pen sa tabi.. heheheheh... anyhoo, afterwards we went to SM tapos tamang food trip na naman. *lol*
Anyway, I guess everything's ok now. I feel good about myself and about other people too. The PSI-Basic Seminar is paying off! (Sabay promote diba?) Pero seriously, that seminar is a life-changing one. Not only for me but for a lot of people I talked to. I'm seeing my life in a whole new perspective now. I am more optimistic and happy. Basta, I recommend it to anyone. Met new friends there too. *smiles* It's worth every cent my brother paid (sponsored kasi niya ako.. ehehehhe)...
I will vote BLACK. Attend the seminar and you will know what I mean *wink*
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I got this from Friendster's Bulletin Board.. La lang.. nakakatuwa lang.. Sana makahanap ako.. ehehhehehe
"That's her.."
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends,who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."
Are you ugly? A liar like me? A user, a lost soul? Someone you don’t know Money it's no cure A Sickness so pure Are you like me? Are you ugly?
[Chorus] We are dirt, we are alone You know we are far from sober! We are fake, we are afraid You know it’s far from over We are dirt we are alone You know we are far from sober! Look closer, are you like me? Are you ugly?
Turn a blind eye Why do I deny? Medicate me So I die Happy A strain of cancer Chokes the answers Are you like me? A liar like me?
[Chorus]
I don't care, you don’t care I'm bitter, you're angry. You don't care, I don't care You love you, just like me I blame you, you blame me I’m bitter, you're angry. You don't care, I don’t care You love you, like me
"Hi." You said as you sat by my side. All I could do was stare. I did not expect to see you, especially today. I could tell that you just came from the gym. You stared back in a funny way. It was like you were trying to read my mind. "Gym?" I asked stupidly knowing that the answer was obvious. You just nodded your head. We sat beside each other not saying anything at all while watching the kids play in the park. You changed a lot since we were kids. You grew taller, much cuter and you even smell good when you’re sweaty.
After a few minutes of silence you looked at me and smiled. "What?" I asked while punching your arm in a playful manner. "Nothing, it’s just sometimes I wish we were kids again". And so do I. Things were less complicated back then when you were this stick-thin guy who likes to pretend that he was Batman, and no-boys/girls-allowed-clubs were the "IN" thing.
I saw your wristwatch. It’s the same wristwatch I gave you a few years ago. "Nice to see you’re still wearing that watch" I complimented. "This one? Why not? It was given by the best person in the world" you said while your smile melts my heart.
"I have to go. I still have a lot of things to do" I said as I stood up. You stood up being the gentleman that you are and said "Be there tomorrow ok? I need you to be there". I was able to smile and said "Of course, it’s your wedding; I wouldn’t miss it even if I get courtside passes to an NBA championship game". You dropped your bag and hugged me tight and whispered "Thanks. You’re the best friend any guy could ask for. I’ll name our kid after you". "Sabi mo yan ha, after 5 months dapat madadagdagan ang magaganda sa mundo" *(Just be sure that after 5 months, your kid would turn out as beautiful as me) I joked and you just smiled. "Sige na, aayusin ko pa yung dress ko para bukas" (Anyway, I still have to get my dress ready for tomorrow). As I turned around, I heard you whisper something. I whispered "I love you too". Too bad you cannot hear it together with my tears that you cannot see.
*I'm not good at translations.. hihi
I was just too bored the other night (or I just want to take my mind of something) when I decided to experiment. I haven't written any sense for such a long time and I'm a sucker for friends-in-love-but-could-never-be stories.. ehehheeh...
money: 5 love: 2 attitude: 3 You've got a double-dose of sentimentality to deal with. The emotional part is just fine. You love emotions, the stronger the better. It's the soft, sweet, mushy part you're having a problem with.
hahahahaha... tama ba yun?
I think I'll love this new feature
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They say friendster is a great tool for getting in touch with old and new friends.
But guess what... it's also a great tool for stalking. *evil grin*
I'm currently stalking this guy a friend finds cute. I found his personal info (including his phone #, cp # and address) through the web (including his friendster account). Don't worry, I have no plan on calling him or texting him. Now, my friend and I has no interest anymore.. eheheheh.. because of what we read. Hahahah.. But he's cute though. He looks like Borgy Manotoc.
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And another one from friendster:
Scorpio (Oct 23 - Nov 21) The Bottom Line Stop waiting for something exciting to happen. Get out there and make your own news.
>> Great advice.
In Detail You're not usually the 'sappy' type. Well, you'll need to get past that now, especially if you're already with someone you consider delectable. Because the heavens have seen fit to arrange a veritable buffet of romantic interludes, and you'll certainly be able to partake of at least one. In fact, you'd better confine yourself to just one. Jealousy isn't pretty -- especially yours.
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Tomorrow would be my exam at a certain IT Firm. I really want to work there. Wish me luck... :D
(title taken from the transcripts of my YM Archives [a.k.a. copy paste edit])
Mahirap maniwala sa mga lalake sa panahong ito. Paniniwalain ka nila na mahal ka nila. Pahuhulugin nila ang loob mo sa kanila. Sabay hindi ka ren pala kayang saluhin (at hindi dahil mabigat ako).
Kani-kanina lang ay ka-chat ko si parekoy sa YM. Nung mga nakaraang araw kasi eh bihira lang kami mag-usap. Nanibago ako ng sobra dahil nasanay ako na kausap ko sya araw-araw. Hindi ko ito pinansin nung una, pero nung tumagal naisip ko "aba, pinagmumukha akong tanga nito ha". Nagkataon na online sya kanina kaya nag usap kme.
Nagsawa/Nainip raw sya. Dahil ata isang linggo akong nawala. Imagine??? Isang linggo lang nagsawa/nainip na sya? Que Horror! Ang labo diba? Natuon niya raw sa ibang bagay yun attention niya. Kaya siguro nawala sa akin. Hanep! Hayop! Lufet! Astig! Ouch diba? At eto malupit, pinalagpas lang raw niya graduation ko bago sabihin. Hanep! Hayop! Lufet! Astig! Pampalubag loob ito! IN FAIRNESS, HONEST SYA (talagang all caps yan).
Kanina gusto ko syang sapakin, gusto ko syang dikitan ng duct tape sa legs at hilain ito bigla. Gusto ko sirain mukha niya. Pero nakakatuwa, pagkatapos ng ilang minuto, ok na ren ako (wag ko lang maaalala yung nangyari).
"bkit d b tyo pdeng mging friends???" >> oo naman. pwede tayo maging friends. Dagdag kita sa listahan ko ng friends. Tropa material talaga ako ever.. eheheeh..
Naisip ko, baka pride lang talaga ang nasaktan sa akin. Kasi nagmukha na naman akong tanga. Napapaniwala na naman ako sa isang lalake na hindi naman pala kaya panindigan ang mga sinasabi niya. Talaga bang uto-uto ako? O talagang gusto ko lang ng taong mag mamahal sa akin? Hopeless romantic ika nga..
Siguro nga sya yung taong dadaan lang sa buhay mo para may marealize ka. Kung sabagay, marami ako na realize sa sandaling panahon na nakilala ko sya. Narealize ko na panahon na para kalimutan si JC at maging masaya. Para syang diatabs. Pag-labas nia, kasama na ren lahat ng dumi. Ehehehe.. Narealize ko na most guys and committment are like oil and water. Narealize ko na guys from the south and girls from the north rarely a matches each other. Pucha! sana naman kasi hindi sila lahat taga south! Eheheheh.
Pero ok na ko. Hindi na ako masyadong asar. At least ngayon, I could go out on friendly dates again without feeling guilty.
Kaya ko pa ren maging masaya. Siguro mas ok na ko ngayon kasi malinaw na lahat at hindi na ko nangangapa.
At para sayo (si "parekoy").. ok na ko sa issues ko with my ex.. sana ikaw ren. :D.. feeling ko kelangan ka pa ren niya.. and I have a feeling that you need her too.
honga pala.. kokontrahin ko ung kanta ni Niña
You could call me in the middle of night Expect me to there It could be the way it was before .... .... .... Well we could still be friends
eeehhehe... And I'm not bitter.. If I were, this would be an entirely different post :þ..
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Side Comment: haaay nako pansin ko lang.. eto na naman ako. Si babaeng intindi ng intindi.. Si babaeng natapakan na naman pride pero ok pa ren. Si babaeng MEANTIME GIRL, the official kabit, the official fling/flame, the official make-out buddy.. blah blah blah blah.. Eh gago ako e. Pumapayag kasi ako. Oo na. Tanga ako at baliw..
The Pope died just this morning (9:37 p.m. in the Rome). Considering I am a *non-practicing catholic and I have minimal trust with the catholic church, I was shocked by the news. That's why I am not surprised on how deeply the devoted are affected. Anyway, the Pope has greatly affected lives of many people and did his job well as a servant of God. I am not depressed that he passed away, but I am relieved because he's no longer feeling the pain and he's with our Father. Let us (no matter what your beliefs are) offer a prayer for a man of principles and a man who had an effect to the whole world... Let us also pray for the next Pope that will lead the catholic church.
*I am not an atheist nor an agnostic, I just have my way of showing my faith and love for God.
Because I feel beautiful right now and camwhoring is fun
pre-grad/grad
I'll let the pictures say how our graduation was..
abi,keren,tin
group pic! mga sabik sa camera!
abi&basti (who was also there)
papa, abi, granma
I did not cry at all during the ceremony. Maybe because we were all happy and we know that we would still see each other. What's sad is we were not complete. :( I wish Leah, Dennis, Darren and Jed were there.
Best viewed in internet explorer 7.0 1024 x 768.. it's my first time to create a header with my pictures. Teehee. I'll still be editing this template.
About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
Lookeeee!! what I had for merienda. Strawberry cheesecake (from coffee experience lang po.. 50 bucks.. kaya grab agad!) and coffee (taz mug!! yayness!)... hahahahah.. adik no? Tapos may table cloth pa (which is actually just a cloth hanging in my room).. hahahah.. feeling coffee shop.. sa room ko lang kasi yan e.. 
