A guy with a guitar (and sings) could sweep me off my feet
A guy with a guitar (and sings) could sweep me off my feet.. anytime!
Last thursday, Lian invited me to go Ratsky's Morato. She told me that Cueshe was playing there (and Hale played the day before.. demmit!). I wasn't really at all excited but I needed to unwind so decided to come along.
The first band was great! I think they were called "Fat Babes". They were funny and really talented.
Anyway, when it was Cueshe's turn to play, I was awed by one of the lead vocals/Rhythm guitarist. He looks cute too. Hahahahah.. They do Queen covers pretty good and also other old school rock, even other alternative songs. But puhleeez! Don't let the other vocals (I htink his name is Jay) do Incubus songs. He needs more practice. Nyahahahha!! Seriously, I cringed while listening to him sing Incubus songs.
But still, they're good. I have to give them credit. Better than I expected. And cuter too.. ahhahahahah.. They know how to give the crowd a show.
And my kakapalan ng mukha got me again...due to the pangungulit of Lian.. ehehehhe..
And to think that I did not know his name when I took that picture. Hahhahaha.. paki ko ba? Hale ba sila? :p.. pero now I now that his name is Reuben/Ruben.. How? I asked him.. ahahhahahah.. ampness! nakakahiya ako.. *lol*
Gawd I cried watching this movie. Literally cried.
Not because of the story (well it helped), but because of what I felt while watching it.
I want to be loved. I hate being 2nd (3rd, 4th or even 5th) priority. I am always the one that loves more in a relationship. Even if I hope that it isn't me.
Every line struck me like an arrow.
Why can't somebody love me the way Ian loved Sam? Why can't someone make me feel that I'm wanted, that I'm needed?
Eeek! Ang keso ko. I hate it.
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Edit: Kasi ganito yun. Ok na ako e. Tanggap ko na na mag-isa ako. Lahat ng plano ko sa buhay, ako, pamilya ko at kaibigan ko na lang ang kasama. Hindi ko na hinangad na may ibang tao pa. Hindi tulad ng dati na kasama si "special-someone" na d ko pa nakikilala sa mga plano ko.
Sabay napanood ko ung "If only".. sapul! Tapos kakatapos ko lang basahin yung "By the River Piedra I sat down and wept"..
I don't want to go out, but I feel I should because I need a break.
I want to sleep.. but use my free time trying to make up for lost time with my friends.
I want to have a full body massage, but sleep comes first.
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I enjoy talking to "1st boyfriend". He still knows how to make me smile. And since he doesn't know anything that happened between our break-up and until last friday (only a few bits and pieces), we had a lot to talk about. I let him decide how much I changed and he said that I changed a lot. Heck! I was 16 back then! of course I'll change a lot. *lol* What's nice is that he never judged me. I guess it was because he knew me way before my crazy days.
I know I said I won't talk to three people who made an impact in my life. But now, I've already talked to Basti and JC. I'm like that I guess. I could be so darn pissed off with you today, but after two days, everything would be ok.
Well, good news! this post isn't about Basti. w00t! But yes, it's how JC and I got along again. I won't bore you with how I our misundertsanding started. But I will bore you with other things :).
We get along because of our common interest. Which is music and basketball. I remember a post I made 2 years ago:
may pagka sayad ren utak ko no..
after crying over him just an hour ago.. and trying to think things over.. here's what happened.. lunacy_uno: .. pero di ba na wowork-out naman naten dati un? [referring dun sa mga di naman pagkakaunawaan] JC: ... lunacy_uno: ... JC: may takot parin cguro ko lunacy_uno: takot na? JC: baka mangyari nga ulit lunacy_uno: ... JC: hmmm lunacy_uno: .. JC: ? lunacy_uno: tmac at bradley.. trade for duncan.. ano sa tingin mo? JC: bradley? JC: imortal c duncan di pede
ayus!! basketball ren pala ang bagsak e.. haaay...
:Yup, after the basketball topic.. parang walang nangyari. Ehehehe.. that happened several times.
And two days ago (gawd! it sounds like an old news already), He was online and BUZZ!ed me. I started ranting and nagging him how inis I was with him. And he was like "Cge na, taray mo eh, next time na lang". But I still keep on nagging wanting to show him that I was truly pissed off (when in fact, I was not anymore). Until he said "Ayoko maki-pag talo. Wala ako sa mood". Bam! That hit hard. So what did I do? The usual thing I do before. Say SORRY. I felt so stupid! Felt so stupid nagging him... and felt so stupid apologizing. He broke a promise for the nth time! And here I was apologizing to him.
You know what line assured me that everything was ok?
"gunbound?" "game!" "server 8"
And yes, he beat me thrice, and I beated him once. Ehehehehe.. Adik kasi!
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Ang funny talaga ng mundo. Hindi mo na ine-expect makita ang tao, pero nakita mo pa ren. Funny no? parang pinaglalaruan tayo ng mundo.
Flashback:
It was 5-6 years ago when I had my first boyfriend. Bago pa dumating si Ryan sa buhay ko. Bago ko pa makilala ung loser na ex ko. Bago pa ko nag-gago. Bago pa ako natutong uminom at mag-yosi. Bago pa ako mag-lupasay sa lungkot ng hiwalayan ako ni JC. Highschool ako noon. At ngayon iniisip ko kung seryoso ko bang minahal ang lalaking iyon. At kung seryosong minahal niya ren ako. Dahil tatlong buwan lang ang naging taning ng aming relasyon.
Sya lang ang lalaking nakapagpakilala sa akin sa kanyang magulang. Nakasundo ko naman ang kanyang pamilya. Pati na ren ang mga pinsan. Mantakin mo na ang first kiss namin ay 2 months after ko sya sinagot. At smack lang yun! nyahahahah!! ambait ko talaga noon. Ehehehehe..
Ang huling balita ko sa kanya ay may asawa't anak na sya. Yun raw ang girlfriend nia pag-katapos ko (kasama yun sa mga sumpa ko e). Natuwa naman ako nung nalaman ko yun, kasi alam ko na kelangan na niya mag-mature.
Kasalukuyan:
Asa SM North ako upang mag-grocery dahil suweldo. Andun ang Hale. Sinilip ko ang Hale dahil autograph signing. Papunta na ko ng grocery, ng may nakita akong isang lalake na familiar. Walang pakundangan nilapitan ko sya at kinalabit.
"Excuse me, ikaw si M***** diba?" "OO Bakit?" "..." stares "Kilala pa kita no! Abi!"
Chikahan ng unti, palitan ng numbers. Nakakatuwa, kasi sa lahat ng may impact sa buhay ko. Sya lang ang wala akong contact. Kaya natuwa ako ng nakita ko sya at nakapag-usap kaming muli. Dahil may kasama sya, sandali lang kami nag-usap sa personal. Pero nakapag-usap naman kme sa telepono. Ang saya! Wala kasi syang pinagbago. Maloko pa ren ang hirit at bolero. Wala na raw sila ng asawa niya. Niloko raw sya. At yung anak nila, palipat-lipat ng bahay. Nag-bago na raw sya at papatunayan niya raw sa akin un. Oh well, hindi naman ako umaasa na paninindigan nia yun. Eheheheh.. First time namin nag-usap ng matino after 5 years. First time namin nag-usap tungkol sa ibang taong gusto namin. First time ko sya narinig na nasaktan dahil sa mga nangyari sa kanya. First time kami nag kuwentuhan tungkol sa amin. First time kame nag-usap tungkol sa pagkabigo namen. Yan lahat.. first time after five years with my first boyfriend.
Katuwa diba? minsan talaga napaglalaruan tayo ng mundo.
What's keeping me busy? Well, besides work and sleep and finding how to get rid of beg bugs (follow up post later), the UAAP Fantasy Games my officemate started, takes some of my time.
Yes, you read it right. The last time I was this hyper over UAAP was I guess.. uhmm.. last season? I've been watching basketball since gradeschool, but started to love it back in college. First it was all about the Tigers, but the more I watch the more addictive I become. I start to appreciate different teams and even watch even if our team isn't playing.
Then I started playing NBA Fantasy games in Yahoo!
But it isn't as exciting as this one you see.. because this actually has money involve. *grins*. And currently, I got lucky and I'm 2nd out of 12. Thanks to Mark Isip and Karl Bono bebeh! eheheheh.. Too bad I got Del Rosario (ADMU). If only I got a rookie PG (which most performed well last weekend).
Anyway, currently, I have Santos (Abby), Vainio, Cruz (Marvin), Casio, Borboran, and Isip.. hahahahah.. hope 5 (since FEU has no game this Thursday) performs well this thursday. :)
hahahhaha.. addict..
*tapos magsasawa after a few weeks.. tsk tsk tsk.. baaad abi.. baad.
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My room is infected with bed bugs. I dunno how it happened, but now my flesh is being feasted on by this tiny creatures and I cringe at the thought of it.
So now my arms and legs has dark spots because of the itch and swelling.
Argh!! Just when I am concious about my skin! (Yes, I am a late bloomer)
I've researched about it them, and learned that they're not that easy to terminate (bummer). And I'm planning to do everything just to get rid of them (even if that includes smoking my room out)... this weekend.. or maybe next week.. or the week after that.
Sometimes, I hate my lazy self... well, all the time. Procastination gets the best of me.
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I've been trying to avoid to post about it, but I guess I really need to.
The problem with most Filipinos is that they tend to complain about everything but can't offer a better solution.
EDSA 1 (and well, you may include EDSA 2) is different from what is happening right now.
Aren't you people tired of hearing the same news every two-four years?!
I guess the most coveted position next election would be the candidacy for vice-president and let some dumb-ass politician/actor/actress run for president.
You've got problems with the Philippine economy? My suggestion? Instead of going out there and rallying, proving to our investors that our country has gone all wrong, why not make your organization, in their own little way, try to help without staging heavy-traffic-causing-rallies. Like a little fund-raising perhaps? Free education? Rehabilitation? We all have to start somewhere. Little by little...
All Most of them cheated anyway, it just so happens that the other cheated more.
At sino naman ang gusto niyong ipalit kay GMA? Si Noli?? Si Drilon?? Si Susan?? are there any other better choices? All of them are the same. After this facade, everything's back to the way it was before.. or maybe worst.
I just hopewish hope that everything would be ok. I don't want to lose hope for the country I love. Most of all, I don't want to leave this country.
three screen names you have had: 1. lunacy 2. DisTuRBeD_Kid (PeX bebeh!!) 3. psych0_chick
three physical things you like about yourself: 1. eyes 2. smile 3. hands
three physical things you don't like about yourself: 1. tummy 2. arms 3. legs
three parts of your heritage: 1. filipino 2. chinese 3. spanish
three things that scare you: 1. being alone 2. 3. catterpillars
three of your everyday essentials: 1. cellphone 2. atm card 3. cash
three of your favorite musical artists: 1. Patti Austin 2. Usher Raymonds 3. Alicia Keys
three of your favorite songs: 1. Maybe - Neocolours 2. Lonely - Public Announcement 3. Somebody - Depeche Mode (D naman obvious kung ano mood ko today no?? ehhehe)
three things you want in a relationship: 1. affection 2. trust 3. quality time
three lies and truths in no particular order:
lies: 1. I love durian. 2. I don't miss my friends.. blech! 3. I don't like myself.
truth: 1. The easiest thing to do is to be yourself. 2. Men are born polygamous, but can learn to be monogamous. 3. I don't like myself.
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you: 1. eyes 2. height 3. smile
three of your favorite hobbies: 1. blogging 2. telebabad (ng magdamag!!) 3. hanging out with friends (which I rarely do nowadays.. *sigh* )
three things you want to do really badly now: 1. have someone special 2. diet 3. Go out with my college buddies!!
So ok, this week started ok and went downhill since monday
I took a cab last monday to work.. and was late.
I took a cab last tuesday to work (with lee anne).. and again was late.
(That's 225 bucks worth of fare that made no sense.)
I finally decided that MRT was the best way to work yesterday, but due to the freak accident, I was late again.
3 days....
I find myself dozing off to sleep.. at work.
and then...
How would I put this.. My friend told me that she asked another friend (acquaintance) or ours what HE thinks about me. "Si Abi? Ok naman sya e. Kaya lang may dating sya na sinasabi nia na 'Tropa ako'". And in the afternoon, I accompanied another friend (a girl) to the mall. We were talking and I have no idea how our conversation lead to me being so friendly that guys would really just see me as a friend. Like I have this placard saying "BACK OFF, I'M NOT THE GIRLFRIEND TYPE AND I DON'T REALLY LIKE YOU THAT'S WHY I RIDE WITH ALL YOUR JOKES" (she didn't really say that but that was my impression of what she was trying to say). I heard all of this just in one day.
I'm being too friendly raw. Minsan daw, mag paka-mysterious naman daw ako. What the hell is wrong with being too friendly??? Are guys intimidated by girls who are too friendly?
So ok. You might think that I'm a desperate girl, but really, I am not. It made me wonder if something is wrong with me. That was kinda serious you see. Back in college, I won't really make a big deal out of it since I've known most of them for more than a year. But this isn't college anymore. This are people that I have been with once or twice. And they already sensed that.
*sigh*
Sometimes I do enjoy being single, but I want a companion that would last. Not just someone who's flavor of the month.
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I've been eating a lot this week. Since my team mates loves to eat also.
"Alien ang word na diet dito" -gay
And yes, I'm starting to believe them.
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I know it's a bit late, but happy birthday soul buddy vice.. I miss you na agad!! gud luck kay vani ha.. kuwento k ren minsan.. mwah! luvya! :)
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Part Expert Kisser
You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable
Part Passionate Kisser
For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble
This weekend, I tried to meet up with everyone that I can. Spent saturday evening with Chesca talking about anything we can. "Sablay" night nga raw. Laugh trip as usual. We needed time to catch up since we haven't got to spend time with each other since we both started to work. We plan to meet up again next week and talk more. :D
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I got to see JP again!!! Ang saya. It has been months snce I last saw him. ehehehehe.. and I miss hanging out with them sooo much (steph and hannah). As usual, ang rami niyang bagong hirit na mabenta.. eheheheh.. hollywood actor amp! Sana may matuloy na sa mga plans nmen since willing naman si JP dalhin ung car nia.. eheheheheheh.
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Despedida ni donnlyn (college blockmate). She had this swimming party and it was a great time to meet my block mates since I missed them sooooo much! Graaaabe!! It was nice talking to people who understands you. Yung mga side comments that nobody in the office understands, sila naiintindihan nila. Yung mga asaran na walang napipikon. Ehehehhe.. Pero kulang pa ren kami :( sana makumpleto na kami. *sigh*
Graaaaabe! Afterwards we went to Lagro for our favorite Shawarma.. Lagro Shawarma rawks! Haaaay...
Share ko lang ung picture na ito.. kasi para kameng mga anghel na binalik sa lupa.. ehehhehe
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Ang raming "eheheheh" sa post na ito diba? la lang.. natuwa lang ako.. Kasi I got to spend time with old friends again.
Sa uulitin!!
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I guess malabo ren ako. Lumambot na naman ako e. Hindi ko ren matagalang ang pagtatapang-tapangan ko. Pero steady lang.. hinay-hinay muna. *sigh* Kinakausap ko na naman sya. Eh ano ba magagawa ko? Sa kanilang tatlo, sya lang ang gumawa ng effort na makausap ako. And nung nakausap ko na sya, lipas na ang inis ko. Kaya ayun, medyo balik na naman sa dati.. pero sabi ko nga.. hinay muna..
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About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
A guy with a guitar (and sings) could sweep me off my feet.. anytime!
