I've been an avid reader of postsecrets.. and there are a few that I could relate too. For those of you who knows my life, I'm sure you know what I mean when I say that this secret has been happening to me a lot. Kinda disappointing though, when you stop and think of how much time you wasted waiting for something to happen and then realize it was not worth it at all when it did.
You see, we have this love-hate relationship. We try to be nice to one another but ends up hating in the end (well, on my part). I guess I've given up trying to give excuses for his actions. He's a great friend and yes, one that I would not want to lose. But like I've always said, everything changes.. and this time it is me.
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My birthday is next month. And I'm choosing between buying myself a gift or celebrating it with my friends. Hirap no?
I mean, 1st time ever ko mag-iinvest sa isang bagay na mahal na para sa ken lang na pera ko ang gamit..
buuuuuut... it's a nice reason to get together with friends..
Confusing diba?
Oi guys.. gift ko ha.. gusto ko ung masusurprise ako.. sinabi ko na kay dennis kung ano ung gift na masusurprise ako.. ehhehehehe.. *lol*.. good luck!
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I was talking to a guy friend about sexual fantasies.. Fantasies of guys usually involves the action and the (number of) partners .. and for girls it involves the reasons and how detailed everything is.. the place, even the scent of the room..
hahahaha.. wala lang I find it funny.. mas emotional talaga ang babae pag dating sa mga ganyang bagay.
I met with Gay at gateway because I wanted to see her. *lol* Sabi niya may gift raw sya na guy sa ken (who is apparently TJ, our classmate back in gradeschool) but he couldn't come. Asa despedida raw ng friend niya. So balak namen mag gate crash ni Gay sa may tandang sora. Anyway, he wasn't replying to any of our text eh asa FX na kami papuntang Nova Bayan. E d tinawagan yung taong alam ko na laging may inuman sa bahay nila.. sino pa ba? e d si JED!!
At ayon naman.. welcome raw kami. So pumunta kami ni Gay.. hahaha.. trip talaga! kasi from cubao umabot kami ng novaliches. Andun yun mga friends niya.. matagal ko na ren nakikita.. pero kahapon ko lang nakakulitan (effect ni Gay.. eheheheh). Tas karaoke ulit! Pero nahiya ako in fairness.. ang baba ng score ko.. *lol*..
So ayon, we left Jed's place around 3:30.. drunk and noisy.. *lol* hinatid kami ni Jed at Romel dito sa bahay tas nakitulog na ren sila.. hahahaha.. First time ata nakapasok ni Jed sa room ko, nag sama pa ng barkada.. so siksikan kami sa kama ko.. pero ayos lang.. sexy naman kaming lahat eh =p.. Ang ingay ni Gay! di kami makatulog.. pero ayos lang.. saya naman.. ehehhehe.. si Jed humihilik as usual.. si Romel at Gay.. well, ayun nagkukulitan.. ako? pinapatahimik ko sila kasi baka magising mga kuya ko.. eheheh..
They left around 10:30 A.M. na... amoy pawis at may hang-over.. pero saya talaga.. lakas ng trip namen ni Gay no? Ganyan talaga pag you put two crazy girls who haven't seen each other for a while..
And if you see manong FX driver (TYD-697).. tell him we're waiting for our free fare.. eheheheheheh...
Tulog na ko ulit.. solo ko na kasi ang kama.. ehehehhehe
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I bought "He's just not that into you".. I'll read it later.. hopefully finish it by monday and absorb everything.. *lol*
Eheheheh.. go check the pictures out! I want to post the Corporate Photo Shoot pictures, pero next time na.. mukha naman akong respetado dun.. eheheheh.. Pati pala Vamos.. *sigh* Thanks to Carlo and Ton for the pics.. ehehehheeh...
OMG! He's the only guy that could make me keep my mouth shut and giggle like a high school girl. I don't care if he's only 20. Hahahahaha! I had a crush on him ever since I saw his picture in his application form back in first year college. I never saw him personally until last year (4th year college). Grabe! When he smiled at me last night I was like *teehee*. I could not stop giggling in the backseat while he seats at the passenger seat. Wish ko talaga totoong sya ang "future" ko. Hahahaha. Kulang lang sya sa height, but I don't care! I crush him talaga. And now his mom knows that also. *lol* I had a glimpse of him sleeping in his room (with the help of Harry)... grabe! parang ang sarap niyang alagaan. Yung tipong you'll go "awww.." he looks cuter when he's sleeping. Kahit tulog mukhang suplado. Hahahaha!
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Had a blast with college friends last night (as always). Magic Sing is the A in A-ok! (ang corny.. ehhehe). I was the high scorer *bow*. Drinking session na naman.. Pero maaga ako natulog *lol*. Pagod kasi ako.
May nag tawag ng uwak.. May nag-selos sa bata eheheh (see pic).. May mga tulog.. May mga kinilig *teehee* May mga na-miss =c May mga bagong nalaman..
Nakaka-miss.. Masaya.. Astig!
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If you did not do aything wrong, hindi ka mahihiya magpakita sa amin. Parang hindi tayo naging barkada.. parang walang pinagsamahan.. sad no?
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Roar for 4 peat!
I did not expect UST to win. Siguro nadaan sa linis ng execution. I guess they played it safe.
UP and FEU, I expected them to be sa top 3. Kudos to them! :)
I love UE's shadow thingie.. I always admired their ideas (ung motorbike last time). DLSU is the most improved squad! What happened to ADMU?? I expected more from them. Kasi they improved a lot the past few years.
basta.. basa na lang ako ng PEx.. ehhehehe.. masaya dun!
Note: Hindi po ako nagmamadali.. Hindi po ako sabik sa lalake..
Ayos lang na wala..
Nakakamiss lang kiligin.. ung tipong "teehee"
parang "teehee" ni harold
Anyways, back to your regular programming. I am now used to having no one to talk to every night. Which is good because I get to sleep earlier *eherm* *eherm*.. 11 p.m. to 1 a.m. is still early for me. I have been arriving late for the past week, due to dance practice, dinner with friends, window shopping.. etc. Can't wait till I get hold of my schedule. I'd be asleep all day!! Especially now it's the rainy season.
So, it's SZ week and we had this get together last night at Elbow Room, Metrowalk. Free booze, pika-pika, videoke, billiards and salsa lessons. Yeah, I learned mambo and such. Salsa is such a sexy dance.. and so was the instructor.. haha! I love Elbow Room's sisig. Sawap!
I need to rest 'coz I have to attend SZ's formal party on friday and Harold's "debut" on saturday.. *eherm* *baileys* *eherm* *wink*.. And makikita ko na si H****e sa saturday.. :p ang aking future.. hahahah
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I want to go to a tarot card reader or a fortune teller or whatever. But I'm scared of what they might say because I might let that "prediction" or "analysis" (naks! com sci!) dictate how I'm going to live my life. But I'm curious though.
Sa galleria... 250 bucks.. 1st 15 minutes.. next 15 minutes 150 bucks na lang..
you said, you caught you 'cause you want me and one day you'll let me go. you try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just scared to lose. and you say, "stay." -Lisa Loeb "Stay"
Funny how we thought we need someone, but deep inside, we're just too scared to be alone.
Sober for 1 week?.. nice. :) I miss the cold beer though.
Would you find it in your heart To make this go away And let me rest in pieces -Saliva "Rest in Pieces"
1 week of emo-ness ren. Soooo baaaad... I am not emo... I don't want to be..
It took me 6 months to get over him, and we've been separated for a year already, but I'm still having relapse. Maybe it's the thought that he was the only guy that I knew sincerely loved me. Don't worry, I'm not crying over him anymore. Although how I wish I have someone to share what I shared with him. I know he has someone to share more than what we shared.
I wake up and think dreams are real I sleep so I don't have to feel the truth that you can never be the one person that won't ever forget me -Armor for Sleep "Dream to make believe"
It hurts my pride knowing things are not the same, and I'm the one on the losing end.
Score card:
Guys:4 Abi: 0
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Haaay.. so sweet.. A friend of mine.. Si Ratmanprimate/Patrick, serenaded a girl he likes. Sobrang nabasa ko yung LJ nung girl and na feel ko yung kilig. With matching band pa talaga. Sa tabi nung building nung girl sa UP. Graaabe! The risk.. OMG! how sweet no?
You're watching, my heart being, so close to you, Your bleeding thoughts. Open wounds still breathing You're my everything, you're my everything... -Rufio "Still"
Kainggit.. *sigh*
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I NEED A FORMAL GOWN FOR FRIDAY!! WHERE CAN I FIN A FRIGGIN FORMAL GOWN?!?!
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I miss college. I miss having to laugh so hard with my friends.. I miss the unplanned house parties.. I miss the crammings.. I miss treating homeworks as group projects.. I guess, even my blockmates are part of my attachment issue.. but I don't care being attached to them all my life.. :D
Ngunit ngayon, Kay bilis maglaho ng kahapon Sana'y huwag kalimutan Ang ating mga pinagsamahan. At kung sakaling gipitin ay Laging iisipin na Minsan tayo ay naging tunay na Magkaibigan. -Eraserheads "Minsan"
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kuya jon, i'll answer the survey talaga promise! naka save na sya sa MS word.. ehhehe nag iisip p ko..
Breathe in for luck. Breathe in so deep. This air is blessed, you share with me. This night is wild, so calm and dull. These hearts, they race, from self-control. Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine. We're doing fine. We're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me? So I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry. Whichever you prefer.
The words are hushed, "let's not get busted." Just lay entwined here, undiscovered. Safe in here from all the stupid questions. "Hey did you get some?" Man that is so dumb. Stay quiet, stay near, stay close, they can't hear. So we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me? So I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry. Whichever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember. Always remember the sound of the stereo. The dim of the soft lights. The scent of your hair, that you twirled in your fingers. And the time on the clock, when we realized "It's so late!" And this walk that we share together. The streets were wet, and the gate was locked, So I jumped it, and let you in. And you stood at the door, with your hands on my waist. And you kissed me like you meant it. And I knew...that you meant it.
yes, it's 4:30 a.m. and nobody's online. I hate being awake with no one to talk to.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.
But I don't hate you as I used to.
Things change, that includes us. I hate you now.
/me deletes picture on phone *not!*
I hate you. But I don't want to hate you because that would mean that I'd still care. I don't want to care. But I'm a natural caring person so heck! what can I do?
I have this attachment issue and I hate it.
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On a happy note, I've been spending a lot on food lately. Well, happy in a sense that I'm not using my money for vices anymore (4 days na ko walang alcohol at nicotene!). Let's wait till saturday. Hahahahha.
BUT FUCK IT! I'M GAINING WEIGHT WAY WAY FASTER THAN DARREN HAVING A GIRLFRIEND! mga 100 times faster siguro... (peace darn! *smiles*). OR PROBABLY 10X FASTER THAN STEEVE HAVING A GIRLFRIEND (I miss steeve.. *sad face*).. And I hate my tummy right now.. And I have this mentality if nice guys finish last, fat girls are great friends. Haha! Friends.
I have short hair. Ang pogi ko. See?
and i'm cute :)
*did not pressure them... nooooo.. i did not.. hahahahah!!!!
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Imma go back to sleep now. Yan tuloy mapipilitan ako gumawa ng blind items.. antay lang kau.. :p
What can I say? Last week wasn't really a week I would say "hooray!". Kasi walang exciting na nangyari.. and kinausap pa ko ng tito ko tungkol sa pag-uwi ko ng late at sa mga lalake.. heller?! Buti nga hinatid pa ko kahit 2 tumbling lang ang layo ng bahay nmen! eheheheh
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Kid invited me to another inuman session. Astig mga kabarkada niya! Ang lufet mag-gitara! Astig pa mga alam tugtugin! Incubus, Dashboard, Finch, Hoobastank.. basta! lufet pa kumanta.. If only they were 4 years older.. hahahah..
Anyways, natuwa ako kay "kid" kasi may pinagbawalan syang gawin ako..
"Basta pag kasama mo ko wag mo gagawin yun.. ayoko ng ganun"
Aba! ang lola nio na shock! syempre palakpak tenga kasi OMG may nag bawal sa ken.. anlufet! mas bata pa.. (mas matangkad nga lang.. 6'1 ata sya).
Ay na shock na lang ako at nalaman ko na may girlfriend sya. And hindi ko pa nalaman galing sa kanya.
Kaya pala nag bura muna sya ng messages bago niya pabasa sa ken inbox niya... kaya pala sa may commonwealth sya magsisimba... kaya pala medyo weird... hahahhaa.. buti na lang bata sya.. kundi nanghinayang talaga ako.. Bakit kaya ayaw nia malaman ko na may GF siya? hmmm... ehhehe
una si ortigas boy.. tapos si kid... buti na lang talaga walang sparks.. puro tamang trip lang.. ehehehhe..
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Many down.. how many more to go? Looks like a lot of relationships are not turning out so well... Uso raw ang magulong lablyp ngayon.. hahahaha! wag na raw muna ako maki-uso..
first of all, wala akong means para maki-uso..
second of all (sounds familiar?), maganda ren minsan ang magulo.. ehehehhe
ratmanprimate: wag ratmanprimate: baduy makiuso abi_uno: lol.. alam mo ba tinutukoy ko? abi_uno: eheheh magulong lablyp abi_uno: uso raw abi_uno: ehehehehhe ratmanprimate: ahh ratmanprimate: oo! ratmanprimate: ganun din ako eh ratmanprimate: takte. ratmanprimate: trend na pala yun ratmanprimate: tayo nagpauso nun pare, so hindi tayo nakikiuso.
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I crush you.. kasi lagi mo ginugulo utak ko.. Sino ka ba talaga?
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About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
