Yesterday, I felt loved by the people around me. ^_^
I woke up feeling refreshed and not minding that I'm 22. Breakfast I received this:
: it was from drei, shelwin and sherbs.. ^_^ I'm touched because I've only known these guys for like 4 months.. and they treated me very well (oo kahit bastos yung mga yan.. hahahaha). And I'm glad may wishlist kami for our xmas exchange gifts (sobrang aga mag wishlist no?) dahil dun nila nalaman na I want one of those.. ^_^
Then my batchmates treated me to free lunch! And at popeyes (I love their chicken)! *glee*.. and of course.. my desert:
: yummy!!!!
Around 3 p.m. my project mates gave me a gift cheque for a free massage at a spa. ^_^ sobrang i don't know if they read my blog.. but grabe! asa wishlist ko yun eh!! Diba?? Diba?? Diba??
I also received this pillow from leeanne yesterday.. early bday gift.. palitan ko na raw yung unan ko sa office.. ehehehhe.. pero inuwi ko pa ren..
*sigh* And the day got better.. hahaha.. Bday ren kasi ni richard sa friday and he celebrated it last night.. naki-birthday lang ako.. hahaha.. Saya sya... actually.. I have no idea how I got home! I was freaking out this morning kasi I had no idea what happened around 10 pm onwards.. Well, may nag hatid raw sa ken pauwi.. hahahah.. di naman daw ako nagwala.. at gumawa ng kahihiyan.. hahahhaa.. first time nangyari sa ken yun!!
So today.. october 26, I went to work nursing a hang over. Pero I was able to finish my tasks which is great because I get to have my half-day VL tomorrow! Yayness! I thought my birthday was over but then...
I got a call from Vinci!!! OMG!! Childhood crush alert!! Hahahahah!! Seriously! I was like freaking out because I don't know what to say.. the conversation was something like this
Me: Hello Good afternoon Him: May I please speak with Abi Me: Sir? (I thought it was sir Z from the other department) Him: May message po ako sayo Me: (Huh?) Ano po yun? Him: Happy birthday galing sa Parokya Ni Edgar Me: Weh????? Him: Si Vinci to..
Poooootah!! I was stuttering and was surprised.. sobrang nag work ang surprise nila Jimelle, Gay and Aldo! (Thanks team 3!!! your the best!!!) Naiiyak ako sa tuwa.. I'm a fan of Parokya and they never fail to impress me kahit 10 years na sila!! hahahahah.. He was supposed to come yesterday raw sa office kaya lang raw busy.. so tumawag na lang sya.. hahahahah.. (Buti na lang.. kasi I look wasted all the time.. hahahha..) So buong biyahe ko pauwi from work, I was smiling.. I feel loved talaga.. Grabeeee...
Next video ng PNE : Para Sayo.. my current favorite song.. hahahahahhaha.. I kras you Vinci!!
Oh, and the phonecall came with this:
Thanks to everyone who greeted me.. to my blockmates, schoolmates, HS friends, online buddies, family, etc.. etc.. and syempre kay God.. ^_^
Yun nga.. may minamahal na sya. Nung sinabi niya sa ken yun, nagulat ako sa naramdaman ko. I expected myself to cry and feel bad. But guess what? I just felt bad. That bothered me a lot (ang labo no? di na nga ko umiyak.. nag-taka pa ako?). Because I'm a big cry baby and everybody knows that.
I thought about it a lot.. and then I realized why I felt bad. It was not because I still feel the same way about him (I'm glad that I don't anymore). But because I felt like I'm this girl that nobody takes seriously.
me: e d ayos, masaya ka na. sya: hindi pa. me: bakit? sya: hindi pa kami eh.
Then it got through my head after quite a while (overnight actually).. WTF? samantalang noon masaya na sya kahit hindi kami??? Oh well..
Then everything that happened the past 5 years went through my head in a blur. Am I not good enough for them? Basta.. maraming issues sa limang taon.. hahahahha.. hahaba na post ko pag binanggit ko pa. Anyways, I told my friend what happened.. "Eh ano na nangyari dun sa hindi sya ready?" I was like.. Oo nga no!.. but then realized that JC used that reason too. So nothing new.. kalmado na naman ako.. ehehehhe..ang weird nga eh.
Grabe! feeling ko tumatanda na talaga ako. If this happened a few months back, I'd probably be sulking right now and feel so bitter and depressed. But guess what? I'm not. Pero na wei-weirduhan talaga ako.. nde ako sanay..
Maybe this is the effect of having a lot of things in my mind right now.. I have no time to analyze things and pity myself.
I know I'm good enough for most of them. They're just to blind to see.. ha! feeling! *lol*
and yes, I still consider him as one good friend. ^_^
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I think this is my first real OT at work. And it felt great because I felt really productive. I hope I could finish everything by the 27th so I could rest. Sana remedy tickets na ko by Nov 14. ^_^ *teehee*
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Antok na ko.. grabeeee... stress... relax... breathe... smile ^_^
But dude! It was disappointing. Not only did I get to eat what was worth 350 bucks, but I got to witness people scrambling for food. Kuyog talaga kung kuyog! Para akong asa MRT! People who are dressed well and seems to be from a well off family.. people that looks like they don't have any problems financially. I guess they also want to make the most of what they paid. But to push people around and cut lines and get food that is more than what you can finish... tsk tsk tsk..
But then, it was somewhat entertaining. I don't mean to sound so rude, but we were comparing them to people who are in need of relief goods.. or people in prison (at least prisoners know how to fall in line).. or a scene from resident evil were the zombies were feasting on body flesh.. It was also a great time for chick hunting ^_^
I only got a taste of japanese, italian and a bit of intl deserts.
So my friends and I decided to eat at yellow cab. We ordered pizza and bought lot of drinks from 7-11. Chit-chat, hot seats (I'm glad I never was in our hot seat).. before we decided to go home.
I'm staying tonight at dennis' crib (with darren of course). And right now as I'm updating my blog, they're playing naruto. ^_^
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Haay.. cute talaga sya.. wala akong magagawa.. ang cute niya eh! Ayaw ko na talaga mag stalk sa friendster. promise! hindi maganda.
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I forgot to blog about last wednesday ^_^ I met up with yanyan. I was glad he agreed to meet me. The last time I saw him was back in January. We had dinner at cravings then spent the rest of the night at starbucks. Talking to him is as natural as it can get. We talked about a lot of stuffs, talked about them, talked about us, talked about life, etc.. With stress form work, and other problems, I needed a break. And I was right, he was the break I needed. He knows how to listen and what to say. I wonder what would happen if I chose him instead of parekoy (although nothing really happened between me and parekoy). Hmm.. I guess I still can't imagine what would happen if it was us. Scary kaya! *lol* aaaand.. kahit papano blessing si parekoy.. kasi baka pag pinili ko si yanyan, masaktan lang ako pag nagkabalikan sila ng gf niya. *lol* at least ngayon, ganun pa ren kami.. walang pinagbago ^_^
We parted around 12 midnight already (considering he lives down south). I wanted to spend more time with him but I still have work the next day and yes, he lives so far away. I hope there's a next time.
Thanks yanyan.. next time ulit!
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NEWS FLASH: si basti may gurlaloo na!! *lol* and this time, mukhang serious naman sya. Well, sana nga.. it's about time he grows up.
yes. the title. uncle pipoy's. moret street. malapit sa shakeys. 1st there was their breaded porkchop*. then their lumpiang ubod. a while ago, i discovered their sizzling sisig and sizzling beef terriyaki. how i wish that i'm still a student and seek refuge at this place during lunch time. besides the great food, mommy (uncle pipoy's wife) and uncle pipoy are great people. you could talk to mommy about everything! plus, she said that i'm losing weigh *grins*. i don't mind visiting their carinderia every once in a while. if you happen to pass by UST, try it. and tell mommy i said hi.
*at it's best w/o gravy, but with ketchup+soy sauce dip
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Was supposed to visit ma'am pearl at the UST hospital. But she checked out this morning. So Dennis, Nigel and I decided to eat at uncle pipoy's. I decided to ask them a question that some of us have been talking about at work (syempre habang breaks).
Me: Bakit ba nanonood ang lalaki ng porn Dennis: Bakit hindi? Me: Eh bakit nga? Nigel: Kasi may gumagawa ng porn. Bakit may gumagawa ng porn? Kasi may nanonood ng porn Dennis and Nigel: It's a vicious cycle
Grabe! hahahahah... duet pa talaga! I love these guys. Because I could talk to them almost about everything, at any place and time.
Also, there's something about UST at night that makes me feel at ease.. *smiles*
Pwede kaya balikan yung dati? yung tambay sa buenavidez park,sa field, sa tulian, sa hardrock, sa payong, sa corridor, sa 5th floor.. merong naggigitara, may nag rereview, may nagkukuwentuhan.. yung pag gawa ng thesis sa faculty room.. yung pag tambay sa faculty room.. yung parang atin ang mundo. Siguro nga malabo na. May kanya-kanya na tayong trabaho.. kanya-kanyang buhay.. seryoso na.. wala ng kalokohan.. pero sana lang talaga.. walang kalimutan.. sana makumpleto naman tayo.. kahit minsan lang.
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My 22nd birthday is next week =s and I'm broke. I was thinking of making a wishlist.. wishful thinking lang naman..
1. scrapbook of HS and college memories.. 2. shopaholic series 3. Original CD of oasis, foo fighters.. 4. a new digicam (i'm too lazy to go to canon and ask them if they could fix the one we have) 5. a gift cheque for a spa 6. full body massage with back scrub 7. SE W800i 8. (edit ko na lang pag may naisip na ko)
and those that are not really impossible but are not really possible either..
1. a dream date with a dream guy 2. discipline (para makapag diet at work-out na ko) 3. food that would not make me gain weight 4. someone to make lambing 5. umuwi si keren :p 6. umuwi si mama =c 7. condo unit.. hahahahha! 8. makumpleto barkada 9. lumabas kami ulit ni leah, tin, keren at ryan agoncillo.. hahahahha 10. (edit ko na lang pag may naisip na ko)
and things that I would love to see..
1. darren having a girlfriend 2. nigel gain weight 3. dennis dating again 4. matapos nila darren ang thesis nila 5. matapos ko ang project ko ngayon 6. malinis na kuwarto 7. (edit ko na lang pag may naisip na ko)
Last night, I went to Antipolo to celebrate Wally's birthday. It was fun because I got to see some blockmates. And I got to have free beer! Now let me tell you this, I'm soooooo happy for Wally and Dya. Why? Because I know Dya since HS, and although we're not that close, it's the first time I saw her this happy. And the same goes with Wally. It's nice to see how love can make a person glow. *smiles*
Makes me realize how much I've been missing out. I just realized yesterday (or two days ago) that I don't dig love songs that much anymore. Sure, I sing to them.. but I don't feel the "oomph" impact it used to make me feel. I've became a cynic-hopeless-romantic. Meaning, I want to be in love but I don't give time to meet or mingle with people. When someone comes, I close the door (and yeah.. open a window.. slight.. *grins*). I flirt, but is not really interested. I want to take risks, but is scared that if things won't work out maybe nothing will.
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Shucks. Now I feel really old. At this age, I should be enjoying life and living each day as if it's the last. But I've been there, and I realized that I don't want each day to be the last yet. I have dreams I want to achieve and places to see. I'm seeing life in a new perspective. Shet. 2 years and it's only now that I felt that I am not a teenager anymore.
God damn Taxes!
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I need to lessen my alcohol and nicotene intake. Although I've been drinking only once a week for the past month, the nicotene intake is slowly increasing. Food binge + beer + cigs = BAD. It's affecting my health because I easily get tired just climbing up the stairs. I don't know if I could still play 3 sets of volleyball straight! I have no excercise. The only thing I consider excercise is when I walk from/to MRT to/from office (that is if we don't ride a cab or an FX).
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I love my work. Swear! I never thought that I would enjoy working like this. Maybe my cousins are right, I am a geek (without the glasses). I'm not really good with programming but I can survive. And like I said, I love my work because I get to see my codes being used. But gawd! The stress! *lol* I'm currently doing this project and I hate the feeling that even at home, I think about it. I want to file a leave, but I know it would be of no use because I'll still think of it. So I need to finish it first, before I file a leave. I never thought I'd say this, but I miss remedy tickets. *lol*
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I'm broke.. or rather short.. Seriously... I mis-calculated my expenses for this month. Hopefully, I get through october.
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I'm turning 22 in a few weeks. I'm hoping to make this life make sense.
Last saturday, I got to spend time with a couple of neighborhood friends. It was a spur of the moment kind of thing. Actually, it almost got cancelled, but due to my "katarayan" and persistence, they had no choice but to give in to my demand (naks! parang totoo!).
It was fun because you see, I never got to hang out with these guys like this before. To me they were always my "cousin's barkada", my big brothers.. But they are great friends.. no doubt about that. I've known some of them since grade school.. Iniisip ko kasi minsan, OP ako.. ehehehe,that's why I don't hang out with them that much. But since I miss my one-of-the-boys days, and I wanted to go out on a saturday night.. what the heck!
Richard, Darcy and Mike are great buddies to kill time. Chesca followed bringing Dom along. We were like kids that did not see each other for a long time. We talked about childhood crushes, our misadventures, the "love triangle" back then, etc. It was lots of fun! And I do hope that it could happen again. Maybe with the other "good papa's" hehehe..
Thanks guys.. naisip ko pala technically d ko libre ung 2 bucket.. eheheh.. next time ulit.. :D
My best shot of the night:
me having a blow job (it's a drink you dirty minds! nyahahahha)
Naiinis ako.. kasi nag fee-feeling na naman sya. Minsan may karapatan, minsan feeling lang talaga. Ewan ko ba!
anyway, BAKA may gimik ako tonight.. with neighborhood friendly friends.. eheheh.. one-of-the-boys mode na naman.. hahaha.. sana enjoy.. sana lang.. malamang OP na naman kasi ako eh.. pero ok lang.. ika nga ni pao, pang patay lang ng oras..
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Why does talking to Ryan always has to make sense. Tama sya, antigas ng ulo ko.. mabilis ako magtiwala.. mouth shut.. not everybody knows everything about me.. but those who do, tends to take advantage of it. He's right, I should not make my life an open book.
[edit] naiinis ako.. nakakatampo.. nakakapikon.. ewan ko ba.. kung sabagay, wala naman kasi ako sinabi. bahala sila. naiinis talaga ako. anlabo, nde naman siguro sila lahat package deal diba? ano ngayon kung malayo? minsan lang naman.. ano ngayon kung walang pera? minsan lang naman gagastos (except dun sa isa na kelangan mag-enroll).. nakakatampo lang.. gusto magkita-kita, nde naman pumupunta. Alam mo yung feeling na walang pumapansin sayo? parang ganun. Kund nde naman pwede, pwede naman mag-reply.
paalala lang.. Oct. 22 yun.. 22.. sana may maalala sila.. sana lang.
Wag nio na ko pansinin.. stress lang to.
alam ko na pakiramdam mo dati.. ikaw na ka chat ko sa YM ngayon
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As a stress reliever, I finally decided to buy "her/him". I haven't given "her/him" a name yet. But I'm sure "he/she" is my baby.
What name should I call "her/him". I was thinking of Blue Jade (since I love the name jade and it's colored blue), but it sounds so corny and has BJ as initials. I should give it a name before tomorrow.
I've been reading my friendster testimonials.. wala lang.. nakakatuwa.. na feel ko na I am loved.. hahahaha..
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Sana friendster increased the maximum limit of friends rather than enablin HTML tags.. ehehehe.. ayoko na kasi gumawa ng isa pang account..
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encountered this testimonial from JC:
eto po ay sapilitan! pinwersa lng po akong magsulat d2...hinila nya ako at kinaladkad :)...nde biru lng hehe...hmmm c abi ano ba masasabi ko dyan yang baby ko na yan e makulit at lagi akong inaaway hehe pero love n love ko yan(sipsip para nde pagalitan)...hmmmm ano pa ba sabi nya kamukha daw nya c rachel leigh ako sa inyo oo nlng kau kc kung nde hala lagot kau :Plove you po beh mwah :) :)
tama! ganyan mag lambing yan! hahahah..
tapos eto pa galing sa friend ng kuya ko
Makulit tong si Abi. Ok sa asaran, laging bungisngis, tawa nang tawa. I see Abi as someone who is always up to date with the current trends. Pag tinanong mo yan kung ano sikat ngayon, siguradong alam nya yan! ABI LEIGH COOK! Abi has an angle where she looks like Rachel Leigh Cook! That is why boys are always caught dumbfounded when she passes by. HANEP!
at eto pa galing ka ate honey from USTex..
abiii!!dead-ringer for rachel leigh cook. naks! super mishu na den! miss ko na ung mga times na nagkukulitan tayo sa irc, sa ustex, etc. sporty chick to sobra! dont wori invited ka talaga!haha :)
grabe!!! sabi ko sa nio eh.. Rachel Leigh Cook ako!! ehehehhe.. :p
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Naalala ko lang bigla.. top 3 people na ayaw ko kausap pag lasing:
3. Parekoy.. kasi magdadrama.. tapos pag ako naman.. tutulugan ako..
2. Si stranger (si "hunny" guy).. kasi kakaiba sya.. nakakatakot.. bulol ren.. contradicting pa mga sinasabi.. eheheheh..
1. si Yanyan!!! grabe! naalala ko pa yun.. unting maling hirit ko lang nagagalit na. Tapos bulol.. tapos tapos.. nagsabay pa sila ni parekoy mag drama nun.. tapos tapos hindi sya umiimik.. tapos tapos.. kung anu-ano pinagsasabi.. Katakot talaga kasi kala ko nagalit sya sa ken kasi biniro ko sya.. eheheheh.. pero carry lang! Peace ren kame.. labs ko yun eh! ehehehhe..
It's a nice feeling having someone care where you are and what you're doing. He's still a stranger to me, which makes it better. Haha! Having someone call me "hunny" is something new... hahahaha! promise! iba ang feeling! Hindi ako sanay.. *belat* na-sho-shock ako.. pero carry lang.. ride lang..
Buuuut.. it's nothing serious. And wala akong plans. Not now.
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Sarap ng shawarma. Sarap ng mga heart to heart talk.
Ang raming plans for next saturday. Movie marathon, punta UST.. hahahah.. sana matuloy.. sana may pumunta (if ever matuloy).. Hirap mag-aya..
pero d naman masama loob ko.. ehehhehe.. may next time pa naman eh.. kaya kelangan nio bumawi.. *belat*
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I guess, I'm more of "sige ride lang" type of person. Go with the flow.. not thinking of where it would bring me. So every destination would be a surprise diba? Good thing I know how to "get a cab" and go back to where I came from.. It would take a while, but at least I get home.
What's wrong is, sometimes I want to get lost.
Masochist.
Bah!
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I guess, I'm more of "sige ride lang" type of person. What I hate is people who leaves me in the "ride" alone. But can't blame them though, sometimes the ride is something one regrets.. I just wish that they would tell me that they decided to step out of the bus and left me alone to drive.
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Marami akong gustong i-blog. Pero wag muna ngayon.
Masaya ba ako?
Ayos lang.. Hindi naman ako malungkot eh.
Thanks to Jed, Darren and Erek.. you guys rawk!!! Laki ng tulong niyo sa ken today.. hindi lang obvious :)
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About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
Last saturday, I got to spend time with a couple of neighborhood friends. It was a spur of the moment kind of thing. Actually, it almost got cancelled, but due to my "katarayan" and persistence, they had no choice but to give in to my demand (naks! parang totoo!).
