Dinner with my blockmates Dinner with Tin and Issa (and Marlo) Galera with Tin and her blockmates
Bunch of pictures to post pa..
But I want to tell you one thing.. I've said it before, but I'm not scared of saying it again. I love my mom so much and I miss her badly.
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Things were going smoothly between me and my baby. 'Di na kami nag aaway as much as we used to and medyo nakaka-adjust na sya sa lifestyle ko.. or trying.. pero ramdam ko ang matinding effort niya para lang di kami mag kainisan.
Anyway, ayon, things were ok nga.. tapos a bad news came. Bad news talaga. Something that could affect our future. Na depress sya and nalungkot ako... at nahirapan.. Di ko alam if iisipin ko yung sarili ko or kme. I did not see the total effort on his side to work it out. Kaya yun...
I was starting to think about things.. If enough na yung love namen.. If magiging malaking issue ba yung status namin.. If ever we end up together, will we survuve.. mga ganung effect..
Heard different opinions from friends. Some said stay, bata pa raw ako, live the moment lang, while others said that I should think about the future, if I think na kaya niya panindigan yung responsibilities niya, then I should stay but if wala akong nakikitang effort, I should go na raw.
I was at the point na di ako sure. Kasi kahit sabihin niya na gusto niya, wala naman ako masyado nakikitang determination on his side. Mehn, ngayon na lang ako ulit umiyak ng ganun.
I guess he knows how I feel. Because I told him what was running through my mind. Sabi naman niya alam niya yung mga mali niya.
I left my mom an offline message about it. I don't what to expect from her. I thought she would tell me to leave, that she sees no future for us.
But I was wrong...
mama (6/19/2007 9:08:06 AM): tell him there is always a next time and that he can only learn from the mistakes.... you can help him not to make the same mistake but he will have to want it first...
She did not say anything about giving up...
It made me feel better that despite what other people think, my mom believes in me and my decisions.
I love her and I'm glad that she's my mom.
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Don't get me wrong, di talaga sablay boyfriend ko. Nakakabawi naman sya sa maraming bagay... I know he's faithful and he loves me very much (and I love him too). May mga things lang talaga na di maiwasan isipin. I just hope he really straighten up his life na. Para ren naman sa kanya yun.
After 3 days of misunderstandings, away-bati, arguments and almost on the verge of breaking up.. I'm really glad we're ok again. First time namin nag away ng ganun katagal.. and it was over the usual petty stuffs.. not telling him that I'd be coming home late, hirits na di niya gusto and the way I wear my clothes. I know it's mababaw, pero nag sunod-sunod kasi.. and maybe ayaw nmen magpatalo pareho kasi feeling namin tama kami kaya nagkapatong patong and there were things that was said that I hope he didn't mean.
Pero like I said, ok na kami.. nakabawi na kami sa isa't isa ng mga lambing at kisses na namiss nmen nung days na magkaaway kami.. *kilig* Sabi ko naman diba? Hanggang kaya, I'll try to make things work..
Baby, bawas bawasan ang pag drama ha? and wag masyado sensitive.. and sana maniwala at magtiwala ka sa ken pag sinabi kong ikaw lang talaga.. 'di pa ba obvious??? =p love you lots! tara! inggitin pa naten sila! hahahhaha.. and deal naten ha... "suntok sa pader = - QT" hehhehe
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I'm on webcam right now with my cute li'l cousins faye and maye (cute names.. their elder sister is named kaye... hahahha).. Ang kukulit pa ren..
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Mark B texted a while ago... mehn I miss that guy.. He's one of those guy friends na sasabay pa sa ken hanggang SM north (from UST) para lang may kasabay ako pauwi kahit na may shorter and cheaper way for them. May girlfriend na raw sya, name is Abi ren.. ahhahaha.. I haven't seen him in years! and excited ako makita sya ulit.. CS2k5 outing na!!!! Please!!! I need you guys!!! hehehehe
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About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
