First time ko umattend ng Oktoberfest last friday. Only because of the Third Eye Blind concert. Despite having a sprained ankle form thursday's pick-up game, I walked from somewhere/almost corinthians (dun malapit building ko eh) to metrowalk (for a quick hair fix) then from metrowalk to San Miguel ave (till dun sa kabilang entrance). I swear! it was so disorganized! Di kami makapasok. Tapos kahit sino tanungin mo na staff, walang masagot. We then walked back near the main stage and entered the exit (pasaway kami, and nadala ng taray charms ni Joy or baka dun lang talaga entrance ng Gold Tickets, we forgot to check the map eh :( ). Anyhoo, lucky for us we got a place near the stage (after haggling with the bouncer to let us enter) and was able to watch the fireworks.
We were able to enjoy the full set of Bloomfields and OBS. I also saw Olsen Racela! Pero malayo, but still ok lang. I was trying to take pictures but due to my shaky hands, most of them came out blurred :(. I'm still trying to edit some of the pictures, but here's what I've got so far. (Click thumbnails for larger images)
Wasn't able to get pictures of the whole concert because manong bouncer said it wasn't allowed. Eh scary sya eh. Kaya yun.
Anyway, the concert was fun fun fun!! I may not act like it during the concert itself (syempre pagod sa work tas pilay), pero nag enjoy ako! Especially when they sang songs that reminds me of my student days :). Lahat ng init ng ulo ko tungkol sa oktoberfest, nawala! Ehehehe.. Stephan Jenkins connected with the crowd and I really LOL'ed (dahil nakakatuwa) when he sang "Ride with me" where the crowd answered "It's all about the money!". I have it on video, pero Treo lang so nde clear :( although medyo rinig naman ang boses.
Oh yes, after the concert, we headed to the tent. Scary lumabas ng viewing area, ang raming lasing. Muntikan na kaming nde papasukin kasi pang super VIP raw tickets naman.. Though, ang rami ng nagrereklamo. Lolz, pero ayun, taray charms na naman ni Joy kaya nakapasok ren, where finally I had my dinner (although hindisobrang sarap, ok na ren) and beers!
Anyway, I'll stay out of the coming Oktoberfest events. (And will have our own oktoberfest with QC friends on october.. yay!). Do you know where we could buy the Oktoberfest limited edition beer?
Growing up, I have never watched the Eraserheads perform live. I was young back then and my mom wouldn't allow me to go to concerts. I would always record their songs on casette tapes and would hate it when the DJ's talk while the song is playing. I wasn't the die hard type, but I love them. I had a huge crush on Ely Buendia, I don't know all their songs (since I had no money to buy their albums) but I was sure that they're one of the best band evah!
College was a different story, that's when their songs sink in. When you love, hurt, have fun, make fun of other people, etc. The songs I listen to back in grade school finally made sense. Classic diba? Ilang years na, pinakikinggan pa ren.
So imagine my reaction when I heard that they're going to have a reunion concert.... and imagine my reaction when I heard it would not be free... meaning people are somehow controlled (I hate orcs, especially when they're in packs). Can you?? Can you?? YOU CAN'T. Because I can't even explain it.
And so enduring 2 hours sleep was so worth it, even if I had to stand for more than 3 hours and sweat so much that it hurts my eyes. And even though the concert was cut in half, IT WAS SO WORTH IT SEEING THE 4 THEM UP IN THE STAGE!!!
Their 1st set playlist (I took note of all the songs on my phone):
1. Alapaap 2. Ligaya 3. Sembreak 4. Hey Jay 5. Harana 6. Fruitcake 7. Toyang 8. Kamasupra 9. Kailan 10. Huwag kang matakot 11. Kaliwete 12. With a Smile 13. Shake Yer Head 14. Huwag mo nang itanong 15. Lightyears
I was crying during the countdown before the concert starts, especially during the last 2 minutes, and when they sang Alapaap and With a Smile (I imagined myself breaking down if ever they sing Magasin, Overdrive, Huling el Bimbo, and Pare Ko... which is part of the second set).
Though there were lots of dead air, I still enjoyed seeing them have fun and understood why Ely was quiet most of the time (namumugto nga mata niya eh when he removed his shades). Pero people laughed when they sang Toyang (%%they try... to tell us we're too.... old%%). They seem to have fun naman on stage. Aylavhem.
My selfish side wants another concert, but I want it to be a once in a lifetime experience.
According to sources, the second set was supposed to be: 1. Maskara 2. Poorman’s Grave 3. Torpedo 4. Trip to Jerusalem 5. Back to Me 6. Maselang Bahaghari 7. Maling Akala 8. Tikman 9. Spolarium 10. Magasin 11. Para sa Masa 12. Overdrive 13. Pare Ko 14. Minsan 15. Ang Huling El Bimbo
And now, I give you the lyrics of the song that I think made Ely break down.
Light Years
Big dipper, North of nowhere Outside the room, inside my mind
I look forward to tomorrow But can’t leave yesterday behind How it feels so strange To have grown and change Now its not the same
Coz time slips and slides into another place And try as we might To understand each other Doesn’t really matter where you are It always seems too very far It’s like you’re light years away You’re light years away from me
Big dipper, South of somewhere It looks much closer than it really is
I held it in my hands But you’re forever out of reach Far as the eye can see Nothing is meant to be Doesn’t mean much to me
But oh, if only i had a rocket ship to fly I’d be right there in a minute But it really doesn’t matter where you are However near is still so far It’s like youre light years away You’re light years away from me, oh
Far as the eye can see Nothing is meant to be Doesnt mean much to me
To Raymund, Marcus, Buddy, and Ely, thanks for making my life much better with your songs and having the reunion concert. *hugs*
There are a lot of soungs that reminds me of him. Especially songs that are his liking. Since he's more of a hip-hop guy and I, an all around person (naks!), I'm sharing this verses from few of my fave songs that reminds me of him. I try to avoid the songs he usually listens to.
I had tons of songs lined up to post, Temporary Madness - Jodie Brooke Wilson, Bliss - Alice Peacock (feat John Mayer), Echo - Trapt, Come Down to Me - Saving Jane, Miss You Love - Silverchair, Everytime - Janet Jackson, etc.. But then I heard this song over the radio and it describe almost everything I feel when I'm with him.
Bubbly Colbie Caillat
Spoken: Will you count me in?
Sung: I've been awake for a while now you've got me feelin like a child now cause every time i see your bubbly face i get the tinglies in a silly place
C: It starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose where ever it goes i always know that you make me smile please stay for a while now just take your time where ever you go
The rain is fallin on my window pane but we are hidin in a safer place under covers stayin dry and warm you give me feelings that i adore
it starts in my toes make me crinkle my nose where ever it goes i always know that you make me smile please stay for a while now just take your time where ever you go
But what am i gonna say when you make me feel this way I just........mmmmmm
Starts in my toes makes me crinkle my nose where ever it goes i always know that you make me smile please stay for a while now just take your time where ever you go
da da da da da da da da bu dum da dum da dum da da dum ...mmmmmm
I've been asleep for a while now You tucked me in just like a child now Cause every time you hold me in your arms I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth
It starts in my soul And I lose all control When you kiss my nose The feelin shows Cause you make me smile Baby just take your time now Holdin me tight. Where ever, where ever, where ever you go Where ever, where ever, where ever you go...
I asked some of my friends how they wanted to die. They answered truthfully, but when they asked me, I had no answer.
I have thought about it for a while..
I've always told myself that no death is painless. Even if it's during our sleep. It may look painless, but the fact that it's your body that's collapsing or not working.. that hurts.
I want to die where nobody else is responsible for my death. I don't want people saying "If only I stopped her from smoking", "If only I was there to save her", etc.. I want them to think that it was just my time.
Death is a beautiful thing. I think it's scary because it means life has stopped, you can't repay debts, you can't make up for mistakes, you can't achieve your dreams.. you get what I mean? But I perceive Death as God's way of saying you have done what he asked us to do.
It's something natural. I'm not saying that I won't ask God why if ever someone close to me dies (I'm sure I'd ask a lot of questions), I'd cry.. I'll curse.. but I know eventually I'll learn to accept it.
I'm not afraid of Death. I'm scared of not being able to be with the people I love.
While my boyfriend and I were surfing youtube, we saw this, and now I'm watching/listening to his other videos.. and it's magic I tell you. Well maybe because I'm just easy to please or he really is that good! I haven't heard of him before so bear with me if he's already a known artist.
David Sides
playing Bobby Valentino's Anonymous
playing Robin Thicke's Lost without you
He plays more of the RNB songs like Buy you a drank, Icebox, Say Goodbye, Umbrella, etc.. but he has Coldplay too! Coolness =) and also Party like a rockstar! hahahahah..
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Many times I may hate my boyfriend because of our misunderstandings, he makes up for everything in just a minute or two.
Like hugging me while we sleep and I can feel he's staring at me.. adoring me (naks!)
Slow dancing with just the raindrops outside as our music..
Or just showing how much he loves me.
Wala lang.. kinikilig lang ako.. hehehe
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One line in Evan Almighty had me thinking about things
God: Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?
I've been paraying for a lot of things, and there are some oppurtunities that come and I'm too scared to take the risk. Like this condo thing.. I'm not sure if kaya ko.. pero I've been praying for it naman.. Pero should I buy a unit or just rent 1? ang gulo diba? :(
And discipline.. kaya cguro ako tumataba kasi nag ppray ako for discipline and ito yung oppurtunity na binigay ni God.. ehheheheeh..
can't wait for december 1.. galera!! (sana matuloy.. please please please) and cigs... and beach!! I want my color back!! huhuhuhu...
on the other note, I feel much better now. Emotionally and physically.
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I was able to talk to him.. but still not about how I feel, or rather what I felt when I tried to walk away. Everytime we have this sorta tampuhan or misunderstanding, the next day he acts as if nothing happened! Are guys really that way???? HE DOESN'T FRIGGIN CARE ABOUT WHAT I FEEL!! ok ok.. that was harsh, and was kind of bitter. Hehehe.. but then I'd rather think that way than think he did care but does not want to ask questions coz he can't handle it.. Haha!
He's still special though. And I do hope he knows that.
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Blech @ guys who wants trophy girlfriends. Blech @ gurls who are after good looking cars with tinted windows.. And oh yes, I forgot.. a boyfriend driver.
Haaay.. all these superficial things...
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SCREW ERIC SANTOS FOR SINGING "YOUR LOVE"!!!!!! first "I'll never go", now "your love"... sing your own songs dammit!!
*this message also goes to MYMP.. kudos to Nina for at least singing some original songs.. but still, I don't like her.
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Hilera is starting to grow on me.. Seriously... and Chillitees!!!
And btw, I have a wide range of mp3's, if I hear something and I like it, I don't care what genre it is, I will find a way to get a copy of that song.. I can hate a song but love the artist, or I can hate the artist but lurv the song, or I can hate both artist and the song, but listen to it anyway and maybe learn to appreciate it in a while.
My current playlist-of-the-moment includes songs from blue october, early november, matchbook romance, rufio, taking back sunday, dashboard confessional, finch, yellowcard, aqualung... and similar bands...
but I also have my hedkandi playlist, mushy songs (Patti Austin, Heart, Kenny Latimore.. etc), songs-I-listen-to-while-cleaning-my-room (N.E.R.D, Justin Timberlake, Pharell Williams, Usher, Craig David.. etc), OPM rulez (from APO, Smokey mountain to Kamikazee, Kjwan.. etc), and others. (Dream Theatre, Death Cab for Cutie, Carpenters, EBTG, Bossa Nova... etc...)
whew..
I need a backup hard disk before I can reformat this laptop.. sayang MP3's.. ahahahha!
and the second album of Hale is ok, but not at par with the first one.. one of my best buys.. ^_^
Turn down the lights, turn down the bed Turn down these voices inside my head Lay down with me, tell me no lies Just hold me close, dont patronize - dont patronize me
Chorus: cause I cant make you love me if you dont You cant make your heart feel something it wont Here in the dark, in these lonely hours I will lay down my heart and Ill feel the power But you wont, no you wont cause I cant make you love me, if you dont
Ill close my eyes, then I wont see The love you dont feel when youre holding me Morning will come and Ill do whats right Just give me till then to give up this fight And I will give up this fight
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When I heard this song after a very long time, I cried. Well not really cried (I was in the office that time) but tears were there, good thing I was wearing glasses. I guess, I thought everything was ok, I thought I can handle it... being just a special friend. I know I'm past that phase already but I thought I can handle liking someone who isn't. You can't force someone to feel something they don't so I just went with the flow. But even if I try to avoid thinking about it, the worst it becomes, the more I became confused.
I wanted to tell him so many things, but I don't know where to start. I don't even know if I'm in the right place to feel this way. I don't even know if he's interested to know why I'm feeling this way. Ang gulo talaga. Kahit ako di ko ma organize thoughts ko. I'm used to telling people how I feel. But not this time.
And I can only think of one way to fix this all...
I'm giving up this fight. Bahala na si batman.
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*stolen shots except julie's pic, hirap kasi kunan ng stolen, ang sensitive kasi sa camera.. ahahhahahah
Last night, I had dinner with these people at TGIFriday's. Had a wonderful wonderful time. Treat ni shelwin and andrei so mas masaya. Heheheh.. As usual, we talked about personal stuffs and joked about it. New expressions taken from Sherbs ("Fuck off!", "For crying out loud!"), updates from julie, plans sa future, marriage, sex, relationships, career, etc,. Mga jokes na nakakatuwa at nakakabaliw (kahit corny). Ehhehehe.. I love them so much and I don't know how my life would be if I haven't been friends with them. Nakakalimutan mo problema mo pag kasama mo sila, or pag hindi naman, napapatawa ka nila... It's hard to stay sad when you're with them. Ang masaya pa dun, ang rami nmen pagkakaiba sa isa't isa. Varied talaga personalities namen. Kaya siguro mas naging close. Ehehhehe.. Haaay.. can't wait for december 13!! ^_^
I love you frens,,, =p
*of course the post title is just a joke dearie... hihi..
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About me
loves the moon... loves to sing... 212223 24 years old..
scorpio.. loves to talk.. Graduating BUM!
... Junior Consultant.. THOMASIAN... loves her
friends.. selfish.. bitchy.. tactless.. loves to watch basketball and
plays volleyball, basketball, frisbee, and badminton. Drools over tracy mcgrady,
usher raymonds, pharell williams, brandon boyd, vic sotto and the likes.
self confessed masochist.. Loves the number
one.. emo.. loves drama.. listens to a lot of genre.. from
dream theater to patti austin.. easily falls in love.. heart
is easily broken.. doesn't believe in courtship.. tries
to believe in courtship. plays the guitar.. doesn't know how
to drive.. loves the color black..
not really emo but has her own share of emo-ness... ultimate
cam whore! missing the drama in my life..
kaladkarin.. simple pleasures in life: caffeine, nicotene, alcohol and very cold milo.
